So i've come to terms. Im not a perfect person. In fact i have fucked up more than the amount of minutes ive lived. And everytime i mess up, i expect forgiveness, and sympathy. And in all honesty i sympathize myself. After all these mess ups, youd think id learn, and say well this doesnt work, how about a new attempt, but everytime i do the exact ( Read more... )

I seriously cant wait for the new year. I want so badly, to just start all over, and work myself up from the bottom, or better yet i need to. I need to start new with school. i need to start new with work. i need to start new with my friends. I need to start new with myself. And i want to start new with her. i really messed up. i miss you. and i ( Read more... )

something just doesnt feel right. tell me if im wrong, but something just doesnt feel right.

i really miss some old aspects of my life...

here i am trying to distance myself further, and further from my old self, but who ever said who i used to be was a bad person. UGH! why cant i ever be happy with my decisions? why must i pick them apart until it seems the decisions ive made are the wrong ones. oh, how bad do i wish, i could be happy with ( Read more... )

so ive sat here for the past ten minutes thinking of the right things to write, to tell all of you how ive been, and what ive been up to, but every time i started writing id go back and delete the whole thing, because no matter what i said it just never summed up to how ive been, or what ive been up to, so ill do my best...EVERYTHINGS PERFECT!!!! ( Read more... )

so in all honestly this weekend has been plain amazing...fall break, marrige, telling a girl how you feel, how she feels back, driving all around phoenix with my cousin blaring Big D, and ABR, creating beautiful music with my friends. What else could i wish for. i love my life.

in record timing...and after reading it i feel really good, not only because its been a really long time since ive read, but because it reminds me of how i used to be when i read. Not to mention when i read this book in particular last...Im tired of being alone, and im happy ive gone through this time alone, but im ready to start over without her, ( Read more... )

I realized something over the past week: That somethings will just never change, no matter how much we want them to, or how much time we invest into makeing things right, theyll just never be the same. I need to get over somethings in my life because they are holding me back from improving and progressing as a person. So what if i dont get what i ( Read more... )

i hate high school, and high school drama. I pray that things get better once your out, because right now, im stuck in a place where everythings lead by whos oldest, and whos waited, rather than whos worked the hardest, and who deserves it the most. (i didnt make section leader) Beleive it or not, im not as mad as i thought i would be, but i ( Read more... )

I think i've finished this part of my life. The part where i've hurt people, and have pretended to be honest, and to have good intentions. Im done. Im ready to start over, with new friends, new relationships, and a new way of life. I've been asking myself why, why, why? Why does this happen to me? And the truth is, the reason why nothing ever ( Read more... )