I hate when it creeps up on me like this. I'm sitting, listening to music, maybe reading and when my attention drifts away I realize I'm thinking about cutting. I guess you could go as far as to say fantasizing about cutting. Sometimes in places I have before, sometimes in places that are so sick, so deadly it scares the shit out of me. It's been ( Read more... )

Melissa Ferrick rocked my world. Even if my girlfriend does want to go and marry her I still think she was absolutely incredible, not to mention adorable. I had such a good time at the concert which says a lot since usually I don't like them that much. I can't wait to go back in the spring when I'll be 21 and old enough to get a drink or two...

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I'm sitting in the first floor of the Bloomsburg University library typing this entry. I've finally moved to Bloomsburg. After all the time I spent waiting for Nay to ask me, then planning with her when she finally did, it still doesn't seem real. I can't believe I actually packed up pretty much everything I own and moved it 2 hours away from home ( Read more... )

cause I don't think that they'd understand ( Read more... )

I've somehow started this quest to undertand how someone can sexually abuse someone in any sense of the word. To put this more simply how when I said "stop that hurts" could he think it was ok to keep going ( Read more... )

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Just not in the good sense. Yesterday into today I kept having all these miny panic attacks that did not do much for my well being. Thank goodness that I have good friends and a certain Naomi to help take care of me because I've been really scared and it hasn't been easy. Plus this is the week from hell at work which certainly isn't helping ( Read more... )