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As with my last post, here goes bad news: I put my dog down today. I'd had this dog for eleven years -- he's shaped so much of my life. The only reason I didn't commit suicide when I was 19/20 is because of Osiris. And when Jay and I used to fight, before we were married, we'd solve our problems while walking the dog. So he's saved both my life and ( Read more... ) -
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I know I don't talk to most of you on here at this point, but I just wanted to let my friends out there who knew her know that my mom passed away yesterday. -
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So, I haven't been around in, um, ages. School was killing me, the play was killing me, and then my body decided to really have a go at killing me -- I've now racked up 3 chronic conditions, all of which affect my food -- how I eat, when I eat, how much I eat, what types of food I can eat. I'm getting really damn frazzled and every food decision ( Read more... ) -
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What do I get out of overeating, or eating the wrong stuff? In this article I'm reading, it talks about how we wouldn't do these destructive behaviors unless we got something positive out of them. Everything we do, as people, is essentially selfish and designed to make us feel good or improve my self ( Read more... ) -
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My parents are hard workers. It doesn't surprise me that I developed a pretty decent work ethic -- what no one could have expected, I suppose, was the twisted, distorted way it affects my life. I can't call out sick without being wracked with guilt -- unless, say, I have a horrible temperature or illness. Being sick involves active problems: ( Read more... ) -
Gearing up for GF
So I won't find out the results of my endoscopy until September 3 (my gastro doc only works Thursdays, and I'm on the other side of the country on vacation until Friday
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STUPID!
So last night, while I was bowling with friends, I got a "low battery" warning on my pump. No biggie, really, I still get 2-3 days of use out of the pump before it dies, but I usually try to change it immediately when that happens. Being, you know, out with friends made that impossible. By the time I got home, I had forgotten ( Read more... ) -
I hate diabetes
So, for those who don't know (which may be all), I am on an insulin pump. I like my insulin pump. I'm thinking of naming it. It keeps my sugars stable and me happy. I still hate having to wear it, however, and this is one of the reasons.
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I can finally breathe again and I'm ready to continue the exercise program I started last week. While I was sick (and surfing the Internet) I found the idea of SMART goals -- goals should be Specific, Measureable, Achievable, Relevant, Timely. So I've been trying to picture my health goals along that line -- and I realized that they failed almost ( Read more... )