It doesn't really grow that much, some more than others, but not enromous. I think I was more worried about the T not working as fast or as well as I've seen with other people.
I don't care hot much it grows, be it 2 centimetres or 2 feet, the point as I stated above is that I am not okay with that. Everytime I've ever posted about this particular issue, I get people telling me "oh it's not that bad" or "lol why don't you want a dicklet", BECAUSE I DONT. Because I'm not okay with that. It's so frustrating that there is seemingly no other FtMs out there who support me in/and that feeling, or share that feeling.
Just because people don't say exactly something you want to hear doesn't mean you should avoid the whole trans community, nor does it give you a right to be all upset at me. I was acctually trying to make you feel better about it. Sure, people are going to have concerns about taking T....it's normal. I did. And the thought of possibly going bald or having a hairy back wasn't really appealing. But I did it anyway because the good far out weighed the few things I didn't want. I just saw it as part of being a man, and that made it all pretty positive. Even though I can't totally relate to what you're talking about, I can in other ways know the feeling. I do agree with some of the advice of the other guys about seeking councelling if you haven't already, just so you can work through things. And there's nothing wrong with not taking T either if that's what you decide. Best of luck to you. :O)
hey there, there are a number of things that T does that don't appeal to me, and it is still hard for me to see guys i know go on and start looking like they're getting older, like they're grown-up guys instead of teenage boys. more often than not i feel left behind.
i still have not gone on T and i doubt that i will. i don't think that you have to want genital growth period. i wish that there were some sort of selective T that could give us only the changes that we want. i know i definitely feel lonely being no-ho sometimes, especially when i'm in groups of dudes who are/have been on for a while. so while our reasons aren't exactly the same, i think i hear what you're saying.
i hope this is at least somewhat helpful take care.
finally, someone who isn't saying something to counter my feelings. I appreciate that.
it's hard for me, because i want alllll the other physical effects of T, except the downstairs business. so it's like, i'm sacrificing all i've wanted over the last four years for one thing? that's what bothers me so much, and i wish i could get over it.
if it really does bother you that much, then i think it's perfectly reasonable not to go on t. and i also think it's perfectly reasonable to have fits of absolute RAGE that you are in this situation - sometimes it can be really fucking frustrating being trans.
i was really concerned about what would happen to my voice before i went on t, and i am still grieving a bit for my old voice now i can't sing the stuff i used to sing. eventually i cane to terms with that as something that would just have to happen, because where i live you have to be on t in order to get top surgery, and i REALLY want top surgery eventually. it doesn't stop me being angry about it sometimes.
that said, and from your responses above i don't know if you'll appreciate me asking, but do you have a good counsellor? because it might really help to have someone not invested in the situation to help you work through all this stuff.
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Maybe there are other issues going on that are keeping you from taking T.
just sayin'
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Sure, people are going to have concerns about taking T....it's normal. I did. And the thought of possibly going bald or having a hairy back wasn't really appealing. But I did it anyway because the good far out weighed the few things I didn't want. I just saw it as part of being a man, and that made it all pretty positive. Even though I can't totally relate to what you're talking about, I can in other ways know the feeling.
I do agree with some of the advice of the other guys about seeking councelling if you haven't already, just so you can work through things. And there's nothing wrong with not taking T either if that's what you decide. Best of luck to you. :O)
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i still have not gone on T and i doubt that i will. i don't think that you have to want genital growth period. i wish that there were some sort of selective T that could give us only the changes that we want. i know i definitely feel lonely being no-ho sometimes, especially when i'm in groups of dudes who are/have been on for a while. so while our reasons aren't exactly the same, i think i hear what you're saying.
i hope this is at least somewhat helpful
take care.
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it's hard for me, because i want alllll the other physical effects of T, except the downstairs business. so it's like, i'm sacrificing all i've wanted over the last four years for one thing? that's what bothers me so much, and i wish i could get over it.
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for me it's like: what good are the other changes if i don't feel stellar about my _____ changes?
it sounds like it's giving you a really tough time, hang in there.
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i was really concerned about what would happen to my voice before i went on t, and i am still grieving a bit for my old voice now i can't sing the stuff i used to sing. eventually i cane to terms with that as something that would just have to happen, because where i live you have to be on t in order to get top surgery, and i REALLY want top surgery eventually. it doesn't stop me being angry about it sometimes.
that said, and from your responses above i don't know if you'll appreciate me asking, but do you have a good counsellor? because it might really help to have someone not invested in the situation to help you work through all this stuff.
hope you feel better soon.
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