I'm breathing heavy and keep grasping myself...I'll grab my forearm in a grip and fold in on myself. What's happening to me? I started sweating all over and now here I sit, frustrated, wiping sweat off my face as I type and try to stave this off
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I've accepted that I'll never be female. I can deal with that, I think, but what infuriates me is that not only am I not female, but if I'm attractive at all, it's in an overtly masculine way. On one hand, when a girl does mention that I'm big, etc., I know it's generally meant as a compliment, but since I don't value masculinity in the same way she does, it only makes me feel worse.
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I only dabble with ideas of femininity, but I feel like if you had these ideas I'd been given, you could feel more inspired and thus happier with how you look. The ancient greeks did everything they could to swerve AWAY from anything female and what they associated femaleness with. But take Michalengelo for instance, the gay sculptor and painter who did the sistine chapel. His very male, muscular, broad figures ooze with curving femininity.
This is really just a tiny fragment, Camille's a genius (oh yeah and Michalengelo too).
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seriously, though, there are things that you can't change, but there are things that you can change and as long as you are in this desperate frame of mind you can't see them and/or can't see what they might actually be worth. that's why I think someone to talk to face-to-face, who has experience with severe bodily dysphoria and an objective view might be able to help you out of your despair and into a more proactive stance towards your physical being. I understand the dysphoria: I've been there and I understand your pain and anger but many have found ways to live with what they can't change while changing what they can and want to change--even 6'3" bald hairy guys. I know a number who have found happier ways to be ( ... )
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Oh, nice.
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