I have something I want to say, something that's on my mind. (And this is usually the introduction to a long winded rant about something on my mind. I'm telling you this to allow you to run away early)
We are living in the age of our idols coming to age. The age where they look toward the next great adventure. An adventure that we can't share. No ( Read more... )

It's strange to feel a sense of achievement for helping a violent offender. I've always said it's not about the crime, nor the punishment but where Tara Hudson was to carry out that punishment. It came to light she has previous convictions, so expectedly she was given jail time. What bothered me the most about this story is the fact that she was ( Read more... )

Do you know what I'm so ashamed of the most. This makes me question who I am more and more. Seeds doubt about who I am, and my place in this world! I am no where near Tara in my appearance, and not even her can be recognized as female in the eyes of the Justice Department!

Ugghhh, you know when I'm due for my jab because I get overly moody and more emotionally wired than normal! And I think it's at least four weeks away! I'm sure I'm not getting the injection right!

You know something, I trudge through this life one pointless day to the next. Contributing nothing to the world. I've sat and pondered as to what makes me happy, and I've realized that nothing truly does. Sure, I have my likes and interests but I can't put my finger on what makes me happy anymore. I go through life wondering what is the point of it ( Read more... )

You know what, I'm starting to get pissed off with the whole "let's get Nikki so tired but not let her sleep" malarkey. I feel like shit, I feel exhausted but I lie in the dark for hours staring at the inside of my eyelids going slowly mad. And people wonder why I'm a seething ball of nervous anxiety and insanity! It's because I can feel my skin ( Read more... )

There is a lot to be said about a gesture especially it's meaning and intent. It appears I opened a can of worms when I mentioned wolf whistle incident. It doesn't happen to me often outside my social circle and I questioned it's meaning. Did I feel flattered? Not really. To be honest, I felt like someone was taking the mickey! I don't see myself ( Read more... )

I lie here, sleepless, again questioning my very existence and wondering why I should carry on down this path I've chosen. I wonder why I should take the next step that I plan on making when I feel the way I do. I feel the next step will help with the way I feel and know it's the right one, probably. But I still see him in the mirror, still hear ( Read more... )

What's the point of waking up each day to just repeat the same old nonsense every day. Why not sleep for 36hours and save money and resources. They say you should be that change, you're the catalyst to do something different but I don't know what else I want to do with my life apart from get a job. And that is proving easier said than done. What's ( Read more... )

Once again, Nikki Bishop, queen of the Fuckitallup Village has once again managed to screw up another part of her fucked up sorry excuse for a life! I have have the shittiest midas touch since Midas himself! FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!! It's a good job I don't try to take my own life, I'd probably fuck that up too and make myself an even bigger ( Read more... )