So I've slowly developed into a jealous hag. I didn't realize how much it sucked until I got here, and I was consumed by the unknown. Now I can'teven ease my own fears. And they're irrational ones ( Read more... )

So I forgot that I hated this part. This waiting, toying.
It gets my heart pumping, but its ridiculous. I shouldn't want to put all my eggs in one basket. I've been toyed with, hurt, neglected, and cut. But can I help myself? I'm not sure yet. And it scares me. I've gotten too comfy where I am. I have something nice, and that has me feeling too ( Read more... )

Title: The Part Where I Don't Come Back.
Author: torturedbarbie
Pairing: Ryan/Brendon
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Ryan and Brendon have a history, so how is it that Brendon keeps trying to come back after they've already broken up?
Disclaimer: Writers lie for a living. It happens.
Warnings: Maybe an annoying sense of contradictory character and actions?
Author Notes: ( Read more... )

Update: EXTRA EXTRA

I am alive! Hello!
I have missed you all dearly. I am very sorry I have been withholding over a hundred pages in new story material, but I've been quite lost lately. Quite lost, indeed. But in the end, its all writing material isn't it? Its all juice for my stories.

So I'm not upset about it. I feed of it.

Also, more updates ( Read more... )

Title: Might be Holding Your Hand, But I'm Holding It Loose.
Author: torturedbarbie
Pairing: Ryan/Jon
Rating: PG-13
Summary: The difference between love, hate, and comfort.
Disclaimer: Writers lie for a living. It happens.
Warnings: None.
Author Notes: Through my soul searching and revenge, I've been thinking a lot. Most of this is stream of consciousness, only ( Read more... )

Title: Swallow Your Story
Author: torturedbarbie
Pairing: Gerard/Frank
Rating: PG-13.
Summary: Six boys grow up, on, and around each other creating a tight-knit pack of blood brothers from a very young age. As they grow, and change, and learn what it is to give and take; they find themselves with connections they never thought possible to the ones they love.
( Read more... )

I can totally do this.
I can do anything.
I am Brianna fucking Lee.

And I can do this.

Title: Swallow Your Story
Author: torturedbarbie
Pairing: Gerard/Frank
Rating: PG-13.
Summary: Six boys grow up, on, and around each other creating a tight-knit pack of blood brothers from a very young age. As they grow, and change, and learn what it is to give and take; they find themselves with connections they never thought possible to the ones they love.
( Read more... )

Title: Swallow Your Story
Author: torturedbarbie
Pairing: Gerard/Frank
Rating: PG-13.
Summary: Six boys grow up, on, and around each other creating a tight-knit pack of blood brothers from a very young age. As they grow, and change, and learn what it is to give and take; they find themselves with connections they never thought possible to the ones they love.
( Read more... )

Title: Swallow Your Story
Author: torturedbarbie
Pairing: Gerard/Frank
Rating: PG-13.
Summary: Six boys grow up, on, and around each other creating a tight-knit pack of blood brothers from a very young age. As they grow, and change, and learn what it is to give and take; they find themselves with connections they never thought possible to the ones they love.
( Read more... )