well, i offically am ready to commit suicide. Im just so tried of not living up to anyones expectations in life. no one seems to understand the pain that i deal with everyday my stress level is just out of control. i feel like my life is so far out of my hands the only thing left to do is die. most people would probly be better off. it would take a ( Read more... )

hey its been awhile since i last wrote in this but...o well...u havent missed much...My life still pretty much sucks. I still suck at school, Its like every time i try i choke i feel like freakin Macy Gray!! oh and my love life still sucks..and i kno i have friends but its just soo annoying havent to figure out who my real friends are and who is ( Read more... )

omg i suck at school...i used to think i was this really smart kid with alot goin for him but for the pass 4 years of my life i have slowly started to watch all my friend become great students with these huge life goal. I mean they are actually making something of themselves and then i feel like shyt wen i look at my life and how im goin in a hole ( Read more... )

well i havent written in this in awhile..soo kyle and i are friends again!!.but well today was such a bad day.. at school i got threaten to gert jumped cuz i called some kid in my american history class and idiot sooo ya they followed me all day ugh w.e soo dumb. So i can home and holly and allie came over, we had some laughs and fun like old times ( Read more... )

well last weekend was kinda fun i guess...i went to washington with the parentals it was sooooo boring. i was soo glad to leave. while i was up there i was trying to str8n out the vma ticket ordeal....i had one ticket next to me but whoever i invited had to pay 150 then i haD TWO free ones...soo i called los and invited him and katie. which turned ( Read more... )

WOW IM super pissed i just wrote a whole entry and it got deleted soo im hott..ne ways here we go again. today was my last day of summer and where did i spend it?!? in Kendall at the gym! lol..o well...i seem to be very stress out lately...and i dont like alot of people that i used to be close with. like kyle and i were best of friends but now i ( Read more... )

well today is my offical last day of summer and u kno what i did......PRACTICE!!! ugh!! lol o well...i'm starting to realize that i cant be friends with alot of people...i mean kyle is supposed to be my best friend but im finding myself liking him less and less.. he is suoer selfish and immature at times...i mean i took him to go swim with the ( Read more... )

LAst night was kinda interesting.... we had practice and we didnt get out till like 11. so we were tried as hell but wen i finally got back to coaches all the 18 and old kids on my team were goin to a club sooo that left me amy and greg to do nothing lol...so we got dressed (and we looked sooo cute) and we sat around the house trying to find ( Read more... )

HEY Folks well cory told me to do this a long time ago but my computer was sooo messed up it wouldnt let me but now i can!!! wooo!!...lol well im kyle lol im 16 and i cheer for topgun allstars lol....ne ways ...my life hmm....well today i went to jersey's house ( he and i have become very close recently he has turned out to but one of my really ( Read more... )