i have learned quite a bit about myself these last few months. i feel calm. i havent felt calm for as long as i can remember. no more struggle i suppose. i still am not sure where i want to go from here. but i have some attractive options and no pressure to make a choice ( Read more... )

stupid thinkiness. i dont know why now i should fall victim to my ever diligent brain. but i feel super depressed today. no good reason. i had one of the best weekends ever. i really did. i got to see my all of my favorites (family included) and everyone was happy and things were good in everyones life ( Read more... )

i feel like ive been walking around in some sort of slow motion daze. totally oblivious to everyone and everything about me ( Read more... )

im going to start screening all people in SAT format ( Read more... )

*playing playdough ( Read more... )

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this week wes painted two rooms of his apartment. there are few things that have made me feel so elated as of late as this one simple act. the reason is simple in its appearance but complex in my overwhelming need to complicate things ( Read more... )

and its so nice sitting very still
without those old shoes, i could never fill.

getting better/worse i cannot tell. why do good things never want to stay. some things you lose. some things you give away.broken pieces. try to make it good again. is it worth it. will it make me safe today. and its a hard place. we cant be friends. we cant be enemies. its an old mistake but we always make it while we wait ( Read more... )

ok. the time has come to dwell on the positive ( Read more... )