in case you havent heard im sick and tired of trying...
i have learned quite a bit about myself these last few months. i feel calm. i havent felt calm for as long as i can remember. no more struggle i suppose. i still am not sure where i want to go from here. but i have some attractive options and no pressure to make a choice.
its really hard letting go. i dont necessarily want to let go of everything that i cared about but i have to make some serious changes if i do not want to end up as i have ended up the last three relationships. i have higher expectations than that. i have already been given more respect and been listened to more than i have in the past. i am not lost after all. i know what i want. i know what i expect from people. i and im not going to settle anymore. what i want is not too much to ask. its nice to be around others who are not lost as well. people who are perfectly capable of taking care of themselves. people who have goals that do not twist and change with every slight setback. so i worry about myself. they worry about themselves. and we cross over in an area where i feel secure enough to help for the sake of helping and not cause im afraid everything will fall fantastically to pieces if i stand back and watch. i guess that is why im so calm. i dont feel responsible. i dont have any guilt and im not deluding myself.
i also have friends that keep me rather grounded.
eh. thats all i feel like saying right now.
im happy. i really am. (thanks tock)
its really hard letting go. i dont necessarily want to let go of everything that i cared about but i have to make some serious changes if i do not want to end up as i have ended up the last three relationships. i have higher expectations than that. i have already been given more respect and been listened to more than i have in the past. i am not lost after all. i know what i want. i know what i expect from people. i and im not going to settle anymore. what i want is not too much to ask. its nice to be around others who are not lost as well. people who are perfectly capable of taking care of themselves. people who have goals that do not twist and change with every slight setback. so i worry about myself. they worry about themselves. and we cross over in an area where i feel secure enough to help for the sake of helping and not cause im afraid everything will fall fantastically to pieces if i stand back and watch. i guess that is why im so calm. i dont feel responsible. i dont have any guilt and im not deluding myself.
i also have friends that keep me rather grounded.
eh. thats all i feel like saying right now.
im happy. i really am. (thanks tock)