stone face, tongue of dust

i've memorized
the contents of
this fun little dungeon

day follows day
my eyes follow
my body's shadow
across the walls

i'm in suspense,
wondering when
the rats will arrive.

-jd nelson

so...
my apologies for the unannounced disappearance.
i'm sorry if i got some of you worried - i tend to dip & weave out of existence. some sort of poet thing, i suppose. i love generic subculture stereotypes that i can use to explain my erratic behaviour.

anyway, the deal is this:
i turned 22.
i've moved back in with my parents. [you try paying ( Read more... )

i'm feeling melancholy.
near tears.
outwardly, life is splendid...
things with nisa are incredible.
i've been accepted to model with deviantnation.
i'm starting classes at camosun.

but oh, my heavy heart...
my body & mind are just aching. it's hard to figure out.
vitamin d?

also:
on this day in 1945, bob marley was born.
...my feet is my only ( Read more... )

i have come to a major decision ( Read more... )

february has snuck up on me.
time to pay rent.
damnbut a plus is that it will soon officially be the month of my birth and i can anticipate some joyful celebrations. so far i have planned a day with my family, ice skating with beth, cartoon watching with stuart, and dinner with korbin. would anyone like to make any birthday related plans? really ( Read more... )

from the online etymology dictionary:

hysterical
1615, from L. hystericus "of the womb," from Gk. hysterikos "of the womb, suffering in the womb," from hystera "womb" (see uterus). Originally defined as a neurotic condition peculiar to women and thought to be caused by a dysfunction of the uterus. Hysterics is 1727; hysteria, abstract noun, formed ( Read more... )

my 22nd birthday is coming up this february 20th [a monday ( Read more... )

yesterday i had one of the best dates ever.

last weekend i met an adorable girl dancin at evolutions... i was lucky enough to score her number and later in the week we talked & made plans.
her name is nisa. <3
and she is freaking adorableanyway, we met up at solstice cafe around 5pm and just sat and ate & drank for a good hour... seems we have a ( Read more... )

i am having trouble today, struggling with melancholy, struggling with my body. it's very frustrating to be this body, to be within it so completely, staring out... and have it malfunction on me so often. i try my best to pay homage to what i have, to recognize all my blessings & priveleges... try to respect this body as a temple. and yet time & ( Read more... )

i had a photo shoot today, which went over well, though i was in a silly mood... luckily so was my dear photographer, and we kind of just giggled our way through the set ( Read more... )