I don't know if I should scream, cry or just give up. I feel so defeated. So lost. What way do I turn? What way do I RUN? I literally feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulders, the amount of heaviness that lays in my heart is so unimaginable. And not to mention uncomfortable. I just need a straight sign if I should keep going or if I ( Read more... )

Fuckkkkkkkkk. Youuuuuuuuuuu.

I don't think you understand how done with you I am..

feelin pretty bumbed, holidays just arnt the same without your love by your side.
i never thought it would be this hard, if only you had and idea what i was talking about.. You may think you do, but trust me you do not have a single clue.

these holidays are gonna suck, i can already feel it.. :(

So much has happend, good and bad.ups and down, tears shed, smiles shared, hearts broken, and slowy mending. Doors slammed in your face, dreams slipped away, people walked out on you when you needed them the most. More doors open, new dreams arise, and people who actually care about you never left your side. New loves, new oppertunities, new ( Read more... )

i swear it just gets more complicated. is it really that hard to say "will u be my girlfriend?" no im pretty sure its not that hard to let those words pass ur lips. its kinda gettting me down a little bit, likei said earlier i dont wanna be waisting my time. i dont wanna be stuck in this thing where i cant do what i want to because i dont want to ( Read more... )

this weekend was good i liked meeting ryans aunt uncle and cousin (were still not dating. ughh!) anyways they were really fun and welcoming they like to drink so it made things a lot easier and more relazed lol his gramma is so cute and british lol his mom is amazing i like her a lot shes very sweet. i just hope she likes me. ryan bough me a ( Read more... )

itll get better itll get easier, itll be alright

ok sorry i know i keep saying im going to write more and i do for a couple days then i stop., ill work on it lol ( Read more... )

not to much of an exciting days really. woke up got dressed left ryans (still not dating) came home did laundry n got ready for work. then went to work from 4 till 9. i cant really fathom why i used to hate that job (ac moore) maybe caz sometimes things get difucult or annoying and i snap real quick. and thats why im finally getting help. its ( Read more... )