the days just can't go by fast enough. i am going through some serious brent withdrawal. when i talk to him all i really want is for him to be here right next to me with his arm around me or laying down with my head on his chest. or just stand there holding hands. i want kisses on my forehead again and tickle fights. i want the colbert report ( Read more... )

jon is getting surgery. well, he probably already did. when brent told me i got really really worried. the good thing is that he has health insurance unlike the rest of the band. if something happens to brent where he has to get surgery, that could be really bad because he would be really far in debt. jeez. i hope that nothing else bad ( Read more... )

there is this unsettling feeling in my stomach. i can't take it anymore. i just have a very bad feeling. i thought that this time away from brent would help me grow as a person and help me kind of figure out what i want for my life. the only thing that being away from him has done is make me realize how much i depend on him and how much of my ( Read more... )

yesterday was a pretty good easter. i went to church which was really good. then i ate dinner with my family. after dinner i went to brent's nan's house and saw his family. ryan came and sat on my lap and wanted me to eat mint chocolate chip ice cream with him (which is probably my favorite). i really missed his family. not as much as i miss ( Read more... )

did last night actually happen? my gosh, it was amazing. steph was home from florida planning her wedding. i forgot how much i love being around her. and jess was home from vermont for easter. and i love her. what a good night. i cannot find words to explain how we all felt.

what a perfect night.

today was excellent. i went to school which was ok. then i went home and went to work. i had one table transferred to me and one on my own when meaghan came in and took over my shift so i got to leave! i didn't get paid... but i didn't have to be there anymore either. then missie and i went to see joe and hang out for a little. he seemed a ( Read more... )

i have made a list of goals. things i want to accomplish within the next two months. i want to lose weight, get tan, find a new church, not miss anymore school, get new clothes, read a new book, and write a song. so far i have been working on the losing weight, getting new clothes, reading, and not missing school. i have been getting up at 6 ( Read more... )

i have been working a lot lately. in the past 3 days i have worked 16 hours and made about $260. that's about $16/hour. this was at applebee's so i am also getting paid $2.83/hour on top of that pretty much for tax purposes. i am pretty happy about work right now. plus, my managers are being really awesome ( Read more... )

it was really great seeing lauren and lorainne tonight. having them home for a night/spring break makes me feel like i have friends again ( Read more... )

much has been on my mind lately ( Read more... )