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so today i made an enemie
today with everything is the bdays of my stepdad,big brother & one of my best friends. I am spending the day with mommy and uncle d. he's so tired as always. we broght more clothes for him. his day nurse listed wrong items and I spoke on it. so I made a enemy :( not my intent. I wanna make as many allirs here for uncle sake. so much I want to do ( Read more... ) -
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We stand tall & alone against family who is never supportive or there. We are lossing everything around us. We are starting to crumble. We are starting to shake. We have to protect him amd outselves, we have to safe and protect out home. We need more then hope :'( this hurts so bad. But we somehow push on. We sumhow push through.
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nothing has improved.... ramble
today is not the day that things got worse but yet another day of hardness. I am though blessed that the strom passing over head didnt damage home more and harm our lives. but the fact that we are in forclosure, my uncle was just moves without permission to a rehab nursing home and us working hars to care for him, my mom being blamed for it from ( Read more... ) -
less stressed
today i hope is a good day. past dats have been over whelming. and the future holds so much uncertainty. i hope we can keep our home.. i hope that people can give my mom back all tgT she wasted on them and they can leave us alone n we both have better help. then n only then can we rebuild. today i feel like all this can happen n we can finally be ( Read more... ) -
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so im a bit pissed off that i get this email saying that my account here on lj when i have posted my own lil something. i have posted from my fone, right now this is all i have just readin and soaking in to take me away from my own drama. grrrrrr how can u do that. aside from that my god bro memorial to get ready for manana. just much going on. -
trying to move FORWARD
Trying to have a positive life is way harder then any1 ever thinks. Peoples lips flap with the words ita easy but its not
For the last few years ive had to deal with major unemployment,family illnesses, taking care of them, the consistant reminder of the fact that we are going into forclosure & not have even half of the $20thousand + they say we owe ( Read more... ) -
hopeing for a difference
in all this time things have gotten worst. person in my house wont leave nor find a way to give back the $$,$$$ that was used to help him. that he was suppose to give back. my home is in forclosure :'( more of the family that were suppose to love and care for my mom n i have turned on us & blacklisted & caused problems in our lives. thnak goodness ( Read more... ) -
back to the drawing board
:'( where do i even begin. comps all crashed (suspious of it all), terabit died.....all my Gackt & Arashi & Nihon happiness is gone... not even sure where to start. luck i got my lj *hug LJ* i missed u so ( Read more... ) -
merry christmas???
Yeah *giggle* yeah it is. 3new cousins. getting stronger everyday. old friends caught up with. blessing that we made it this far. i hope i can get a job this year & things end up better then it was this year pass. 2010 i hope i experience a better things for the future. i hope also i can make it to Japan. i really need to get to Japan ( Read more... ) -
my intentions
all i have is my dream, all i have is my heart. all i have is this desire to be someone & somewhere, to be with someone in Tokyo. i want to go to Japan. i want to go there first. for anyone who knows me, they know this obsession runs deep. since at least 5years old i have wanted to go to Japan. Tokyo & Tokyo Tower i want as my first stop. i want to ( Read more... )