Oh how crushes can crush your world, even if it's only for a day or two ( Read more... )

Why do I play on with this role? Acting nice was never meant for me. I pretend to be someone I'm not because I'm afraid of being left alone..

Fuck you.. I'm happy being alone if have to be.. If not, there are THOUSANDS OF YOU. THOUSANDS of people that will love me for me. I will never be alone in this world, so don't think I'm losing out on ( Read more... )

I HATE EVERYONE.

I have no one to talk to.. No one that can truely related or understand..

Will I always be alone?

I'm in a small crisis.. To most people the solution I am tempted to choose would be considered trashy or gross. But what the fuck?

I'm too touchy feely because I'm so fucking lonely. Does anyone have any idea what it's like to be as alone as I am? I'm SURE there are some.. But not many in my area, and not many could possibly understand how much ( Read more... )

I believe there is a verse in the bible about thinking too much or thinking too hard.. I also believe it said not to do those things 'cause it's pretty much pointless.. I agree.. My thoughts are getting me down and they're all stupid thoughts that - in the end - mean nothing.. I wonder though, if I should feel angry with individuals or if I am just ( Read more... )

My logic is overpowering my emotions.. Is this bad? Is this dangerous? I really just want to cry.. But I won't let me. What do I do now?

and so it begins..

I know that a majority of my issues or dilemmas in life are a result of personal battles. I'm a bit depressed over stupid things and I believe I'm just letting it all get to me. Little things.. I'm a bit neurotic at times.. Things just get hard sometimes.. I will be fine later though.

You can't always be happy, can you?

So, I decided to move my room around just a scotch. :-) Just my bed and computer desk.. I don't think I'll paint it actually.. I think I'ma just go crazy on the walls and draw shit and write stuff, then hang random things.. -shrug- I need a lot of pins to do what I really wanna do. :-) It'll be awesome though.. hah ( Read more... )