craziness.... thats all it amounts to. my life as it stands is what i would call scary, fun, wacky, genuine, hard take your pick. school is incredible although it is really hard being so far away from home. i was so ready to get out of seattle and move on with my life. ive only been gone 74 days and i cant wait to go home again. there are so many ( Read more... )

college is crazy but i love it. i rode my friend patricks incredibly hot (straight) roomate's bike into town tonight. it felt good to get excersize. i dont believe this freshman 45 or whatever cauze i have lost like 10 pounds since i have been here. i probably should be doing my homework right now, but i just dont feel like it. waiting to play ( Read more... )

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i know i havent posted in what seems like forever but i am tired of keeping it all in. here i am at 3:56 in the morning listing to the rent soundtrack and feeling totally lost in the world. this morning i woke up just another normal 17 year old, well normal is relative, but you get the point. i was going to graduate in december, go to guatemala for ( Read more... )

too much to say. i dont know where to start. my headache finally cleared after eight days and one looong trip to the emergency room. they put me on all this perscription shit that makes me feel like crap. i havent been able to do anything in like two weeks without getting exhausted. but i cant complain, there are much worse things going on in the ( Read more... )

so this is the 6th day of my freaking headache. i have been in bed for 6 freakin days. well minus the first night seder at my house with 25 people at it. AHHH migrane nightmare. i am going to go back to bed now seeing as that is all i can do at the moment and hopefully i will start feeling better soon although it dosent seem like it.

best 24 hours of my enitre fucking life. it was magnificant. i realized my life is perfect. well not perfect, but i realized that all the shit that has been happening to me lately was just meant to be and there is nothing i can do about it. why waste time worrying about it. its over. kaput. erik thank you so much for making me realize this. thank ( Read more... )

jesusfuckingcrist i am a mess. a big mess. how the hell did it get this bad? did i do something wrong? am i a horrible person? see i would believe you when you say no, but then i would have to take my life in retrospective and ask the simple question WHY THE FUCK DOES THIS KEEP HAPPENING TO ME? they say teenage years are full of angst and whatnot ( Read more... )

im tired of this depressed shit. too many things to be upset about. im not going to waste my time moping, because moping isnt going to get me anywhere. and im defanately trying to get somewhere. where i dont know but im not going to stick around here for the rest of my life thats for certain. first week of the new quarter. love my classes. drama ( Read more... )

im not even going to say it because it just hurts too much....