I remember wanting you so badly as you adroitly opened a mango, transforming it into an opened gift, artwork unfurling in your nimble fingers, deft movements making these diamonds part and flay themselves at your calm command, for all the restrained and contained energy glinting in your dark and inscrutable eyes. And yet you could grab my hips so ( Read more... )

I am sick. It sucks very very much. I don't like this year so far. I call do-overs.

( Shuffle keeps giving me songs that are too applicable to me right now )

Recent reading ( Read more... )

Someone has put me on pause. I hover, still-framed and static-edged, existence wavering in this one moment that is extended into eternity. I can't grow, I can't change, I'm forever in this limited state. Can't move forward or backwards. Can't start getting over it. Can't cling to it and hope. Can't feel anything. Can't move on with my life ( Read more... )

I am so furious ( Read more... )

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I don't want this scab to fall off my ankle ( Read more... )

Plenty of time to think while immobilized with gut-centric virus. Turning events over and over in my head, trying to find some way to make sense of it all. As though there is ever any sense to be had when emotions are involved ( Read more... )

"I'm so afraid-- afraid there won't be room for me in your life anymore. I don't want to lose you ( Read more... )