I'm tired of pretending.

Man. I use this thing so sporadically that I had actually forgotten how to post entry and had to hunt around the menu for a moment ( Read more... )

If I had known I would love grad school this much I would have gone years ago. I'm an AMAZING STUDENT when I apply myself.

I wish I had been a better undergrad.

Graduate school is kicking my ass. I've been told by everyone who's ever done it that it's supposed to feel this way in the beginning; but, HOLY SHIT. Information theory is fucking DENSE. I'm wading through articles and textbooks so slowly. And I'm not used to reading things without understanding what they're telling me ( Read more... )

I got into grad school. I'ma be a librarian in a few more years.

...The third generation of librarians in my family.

All is well. I am happy. No time for LJ. Baby growing rapidly. Close to standing on her own. Calls me mama. Waves bye-bye. Exudes sweetness and intensity ( Read more... )

So Sadie has her first bout of a stomach bug today. She was up all night vomiting, which scared the shit out of John and me. They way she was retching sounded like she had stopped breathing. John and I bolted out of bed and I was practically beating Sadie on the back to make her breathe. Scary, scary, scary ( Read more... )

We close on the house tomorrow (Friday) at 4pm. I'm SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO excited.

And our lender estimated we'll be getting money back at closing -- which, YEA!!! We'll find out in the morning, though, after the closing documents are prepared.

HOMEOWNERSHIP!!!

You hear about it. You think to yourself, "How bad could it be?" You forget about it. Then it happens. You settle in to nurse. The baby is a little keyed up -- rolling around and squealing, goofing off. You try to calm her down to eat. She opens her mouth. She gets a devilish little pinched look about her face -- just as she bites you on the nipple ( Read more... )

Wow. I sorta forgot I had this thing.

Here's the baby:

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The best that you can do is fall in love.

It's one of the most rewarding things I've ever experienced, loving this irreplaceable man. He's introduced me to myself in many ways. He's given me a sense of both protection and protectiveness I didn't really know existed either for or within me. He's jam-packed with beauty and uniqueness. He is perfect(ly ( Read more... )