Holism was made up by a low-life who wanted to validate his uselessness.

[thisisnotmylj]

ShitshitShitshitShitshitShitshit!I went to try to get a new passport today. The bitch tells me i need to have a police report stating that my passport was reported lost or stolen and that i need to make an appointment. I didn't have a police report because when i reported it lost in the u.s. they refused to give me one and said that i wouldn't need

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[dishapeaches]

PIIIIIISSSSS! That blows that you have to wait three weeks. Can I ask why you're in Israel if you hate that country and its people?

[thisisnotmylj]

well there are a number of reasons actually.

for starters, i was born here and both my parents were born here. my entire family lives here and my parents moved back here about 2 and a half years ago. I was having some issues and my mom thought that bringing me here would help. obviously that didn't go well. i never really liked this country but i felt so much pressure from my family to come here so i finally agreed. in the time since i arrived here, i've grown to despise everything about the place. and my hatred has been growing every day.

[dishapeaches]

Methinks you're too American to live out there - sounds like it's time to come home! My father was born in Greece and always talked like it was the greatest place on earth. All his brothers and sisters except for one came and lived here and they all said the same thing, that if I ever went to Greece, I wouldn't want to come back. But then I thought, wait a goddamn minute - if its so fucking great in Greece, why are you all living HERE? Geez, I don't even speak Greek. I'm an American. I don't care where my father was born. He took my mother there a few times after all of us kids grew up and moved out and she came back telling us horror stories of the backwardness of that country. Makes me want to stay here even more.

[thisisnotmylj]

yes, i am an american and i'm proud to be an american. and i don't want to be an israeli because i don't fit in with them and i'm not one of them. my mom says i'm an israeli at heart because i was born here. but i grew up in america so i'm an american at heart. i don't know. i feel like i fit in more there than i do here. so that is where i shall go! i can't wait to come home!

[fckinginheaven]

ahhhhhhhhh you need to be in fl for my birthday--september 23, but looks like that won't happen. either way, get here asap, i'll get you off, get you high, we'll get our tongues pierced together, be roomies, have the best place in st.pete and it will be a fucking blast, i can't wait!! you'll be outta there soon hot stuff, just hang in there. also, glad to hear you can still, erm, feel things. hooray!

[thisisnotmylj]

man i haven't slept in a long time. i think i'm crazy now. hahahhahahah

i can't wait to come to florida it will be amazing times and awesome things and i will find some nice cock and all will be well with the world and oh my god i'm manic right now i should stop typing

rarararar

[fckinginheaven]

think you're crazy now? ha! sorry to break it to you hun, but i think you were already crazy. don't feel bad, you know i'm just as crazy, just get to florida asap so we can be crazy and find hot cock together!

[thisisnotmylj]

i don't feel bad, i love being crazy. it's the shit!

[_preternatural]

damn! i can smell the frustration from here, and yet it seems like things are still slowly going forward. i'm certain that your persistance will pay off as well. as they say, "the squeaking wheel gets the oil"...but they also say, "the the nail that stands out gets hammered", so i guess it's a bit of a gamble

[thisisnotmylj]

i know, the time difference destroyed all my relationships. i've lost contact with people i used to talk to daily and it makes me sad. but soon i will be back on regular time. You know my computer has always been on florida time because i never could change it. now i don't have to change it ever! haha.

anyway, you didn't say the word but i think it's implied. i'm stubborn as all fuck. when i want something, it's pointless to try to convince me to do something else. I think my parents realized this and that's why they aren't trying to keep me in israel any more. they really didn't want to let me go but i've got my mind made up and nobody can stop me now.

even though i slept a little, it was such a crappy sleep and i still feel exhausted. i feel like i didn't sleep at all. oh well. i'm so out of my mind with so many different things that it doesn't even matter! i'm so excited by the idea of going back to the u.s. and all the things i can and will do when i get there that nothing can really bring me down now. hehe. i'm high on