ShitshitShitshitShitshitShitshit!I went to try to get a new passport today. The bitch tells me i need to have a police report stating that my passport was reported lost or stolen and that i need to make an appointment. I didn't have a police report because when i reported it lost in the u.s. they refused to give me one and said that i wouldn't need ( Read more... )

This halloween was a complete disaster. All of my plans got ruined by someone who thought it would be a good idea to steal my ecstasy pills. I had everything all ready for rolling. Naomi arranged my room and the lighting. We had vicks, lolipops, and a binkie. Everything was perfect. It seemed like everything came together perfectly at the last ( Read more... )

tonight i sleep naked.
it's been a long time.
and all i can think about is how much i wish i had someone sleeping next to me now. i have a certain person in mind but i doubt it will happen. i tend to fuck things up the most when i want them to go well.

( you can run but you can't turn off your brain )

I have once again proven my inability to live more than 5 minutes without being on a computer. I don't even need to be able to get online, though that is definitely a plus. But seriously there are so many things i could do with my computer, like listen to music or play solitaire. Ok so mainly, i just wanna get online but fucking hell I'd rather my ( Read more... )

First order of business... whats up with random people adding me to their friends list (ie reading my journal)? if you want to read my journal that's cool ( i guess) but at least comment or something so i know of your existence. I don't know. I guess in reality i don't care. so whatever ( Read more... )

i imagine i can make my life better by takin on a postive attitude. It just isnt working for me. I dont even know why im so unhappy. I go through this point where i feel ok for a little while and then it hits me. Im miserable. Its not that i want to die or anything. But i dont wanna live. Is there a 3rd option in such a situation? The answer to ( Read more... )

why must u watch me sink
when all i ask is u reach out your hand for me to grab on to.
instead you throw rocks at my head.

my opinion of humanity gets lower everyday
people dont care that they make others feel like shit.
im ashamed to call myself one of you.

Today my mom and dad came to visit. they bought me lots of stuff then took me out to dinner. how sweet of them. my mom then did what she does best: made me feel like a completely worthless waste of human flesh. thats rite her fav thing to do. she told me how i was gettin fatter and uglier. and how lazy i was and that i am not doin enuf work. and ( Read more... )

So my mommy was supposed to come visit me today. excitement right *sarcastic tone* so im freaking about my eyebrow piercing. So me in all my stupidity decided to tell her about it over the phone. well she blew up at me and then made my father bitch at me and well basically she said shes not coming and that im fucked. Anyways im very, very much in ( Read more... )