change is always a part of life, as most know. things certainly have changed from last year to this year. classes, homework, friends, relationships, and so much more. and as much as we would like to have some, if not all, things back to the way they were, we can't. we must move on, because that's just how life flows. it's not simple, but who said ( Read more... )

Two in the morning, and I'm typing about literally nothing. I've been organizing the summer enrichment I have to do, and listening to bands that are similar artists to Fall Out Boy and Panic! At the Disco. (A side note, P!ATD doesn't literally have the exclamation point anymore. But I like it better with than without.) But I have been thinking. A ( Read more... )

i think im still trying to figure out who i am. what i want to do. who i want to be. and sometimes, it's hard to tell what kind of person i am. i can be classified as so many things. but usually i prefer "dork".

why?

being a dork means being yourself. if you do something a certain way that people think is stupid, youre labeled dorky. but you did it ( Read more... )

nowadays, i'm good at controlling my feelings. i keep my mouth shut, dont say a word, and move on.

then why the hell did i just blow up at him?

it wasnt even about him...and i just started yelling. i dont even think my opinion was fair. he prolly thinks im overreacting now. great. danielle is even MORE of a dork.

what's going on with me?

i spoke how i felt to her. indirectly, of course. she might not even read it.
but if the slight chance that she does,

maybe things will change.

last night was the most fun that i've had. ever.
i haven't had a birthday party since i turned 13, so i hardly remembered how much i loved them. everyone i invited showed up, which was more than enough to make me happy. but the atmosphere that everyone created made me overjoyed. everyone was talkative, cheerful. and i was happy. for the first time ( Read more... )

so summer has begun, and believe me i'm all for it. my birthday is in a few days, and then my party is soon after. so happiness is higher there, but yet there are still...alone feelings going on with me. (honestly, i'm not posting this for any reason, just to get myself straightened out.) i keep thinking back to the dark days of earlier this year, ( Read more... )

*rubs eyes*
i didn't finish the research paper.
i realized when i was typing my conclusion that it wasn't going to be four pages, and that there were parts that i needed to elaborate on. and with only an hour to do them, there was no way. so rhea is giving me one of her late passes (which i cannot thank her ENOUGH for), so i can turn it in tommorrow ( Read more... )

i had a dream sometime this week. one of my friends was shot, and was found dead.
sleeping is starting to scare me.

doing this reasearch paper is harder than i thought. topic is teen suicide, which is...ironic i guess you could say, considering that we got to pick our topics. i was optimistic that day, and thought, "hey, it's not a big deal anymore. ( Read more... )

i guess you could say that i'm doing better. it seems that everytime i sleep, i forget all my problems. at least, until i remember them again. but it puts off the stress for awhile, you know?

but i still wish some things were different.

last night was my sister's party, and it was....well....CRAZY. screaming ALLL night. gaah. i didn't do any homework ( Read more... )