so im back out of jail. my dad died, im living in his house in haltom. im planning on moving to mansfield within the next few weeks.
yup.

pop died. i went to the funeral. a soldier gave me a folded american flag. i was booted out of his house after. im staying with my dad in his little house in hhaltom. back working at johnny carinos. sally has the kids. i havent gotten to see them in five days. im going to call today first chance. trying to stay cean. drink too much ( Read more... )

moved out. have the kids. filed for divorce. have a restraining order due to an assault on myself and my son jude. court soon. be moving between keller and vernon. fuck it. happy to be starting again.

crying. crying alone in the living room, tv on, no sound ( Read more... )

i came on here to write about some things that have been happening at work and around the house lately that have been bothering me. suddenly im not feeling up to it, really.

music?
black flag
PARK
i am the avalanche
shai hulud
the gallows
drake
mgk
mindless self indulgence
die antwoord
emmure
off with their heads!
new found glory
lil wayne
T.I.

sitting on the couch with the kids watching them play.james wants to be like jude so badand he cant even walk yet. jude is a cool big brother. tired. its fight night tonight (dos santos v velasquez) so its going to be crazzzzy busy at work. we get to watch the fight for free on the tv in the kitchen while we work which is cool. its e decent card. ( Read more... )

i found out christmas morning that sally has been seeing some guy. actually been seeing and already broken it off with some guy. she tried to tell me that it happenedafter we split up but the math doesnt add up, im pretty sure its got a lot to do with her sudden decision to split. she tried to tell me how sexy he is, how he looks like adrien brody ( Read more... )

just got back from the er. had really bad chest pains for the last few days, at work my chest seized up, my shoulders and neck got stiff, i got dizzy and started puking. so anyway an ekg, chest x rays, 2 blood tests, an iv and a few hours in a hospital bed plus a ua and i have a damn viral lung infection.my lungs swoll up so bad i couldnt breathe. ( Read more... )

it figures she would win ( Read more... )

found an old journal earlier. first half is full of love like a shining sun and the second is so drenched in pain it was almost unbearable to even see the scrawl on the pages. its one half of the two notebooks ive mentally referred to as the "megan books". not sure which half it is. judging by the drawings and content i know it covers the brandt ( Read more... )