"With mixed anxiety and depression you are emotionally vulnerable. Every situation can be emotionally and intellectually demanding, not just facing your feelings in written exercises."

"If you are emotionally sensitive and feel intensely, and your feelings don't accurately predict what you should do or what is going on in a situation, then you begin ( Read more... )

I had lunch with the professor I work for. He said I can live in his office if I need to (he has a fridge). lol I had a session with Lindsay that went well. Then Esmeralda and her family came over to help clean up the place because a realtor is coming this weekend to take pictures to put them up online. In a way, it's good cuz it'll force me to ( Read more... )

I want to write

But I don't feel like I can anymore.

I don't even feel like I have the energy to submit my story to anymore literary magazines. Getting rejected a couple of times seems too much for me. Everyone says it takes forever to get published the first time... I don't know.

"Love me, because love doesn't exist, and I have tried everything that ( Read more... )

"So she had to satisfy herself with the idea of love--loving the loving of things whose existence she didn't care at all about. Love itself became the object of her love. She loved herself in love, she loved loving love, as love loves loving, and was able, in that way, to reconcile herself with a world that fell so short of what she would have ( Read more... )

I didn't do much today.

And I guess that's good. I was home alone for a while because my mom went to go pick up our car that was being fixed. I read more of Everything is Illuminated. It's so fucking beautiful. I haven't read anything so beautiful in a long time. I sat outside on our balcony with Mr. Darcy. It was pretty warm today and the leaves ( Read more... )

I have a dentist appointment tomorrow. Ew. It has been far too hot for me to do much of anything the past few days. So I've stayed in my house and made jewelry.


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I read it while on my 2 week trip to Europe. I'm a sap, I know. I loved it, but it broke my heart a thousand times over. I hated Scarlett's character. Loathed her with a very fiery passion-- probably because I used to be so self-absorbed when I was younger, thinking that how many boys liked me was all that mattered. But one thing she is, that I ( Read more... )

Though, I can't say that I've tried very hard to fall asleep, I just know that I can't. I've been sick this past week which has prompted me to feel lazy and unproductive.

I never feel like I'm doing "enough" and there is always more to be done.

Jozef said he was annoyed that I second guess/don't trust myself. It's not something I feel like I can help ( Read more... )

I'd like to do research on serial killers, much to the dismay of my mother. I find them fascinating.

I realize this book is fictional ... but nonetheless you'll get brownie points if you can guess it.

"A census taker tried to quantify me once. I ate his liver with some fava beans and a big Amarone. Go back to school, little Starling."

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