Yay.

[therru]

My hesitant cold has overnight turned into a fully blown head cold. I've tried to get hold of bracke and nazgman to find out if I am still welcome to tag along, but haven't been able to reach either of them. I've left a message on bracke's mobile. I hope they get back to me before the bus leaves.

EDIT: bracke just called me back, and I'm staying home. Her mother's SO has

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[sneprinsesse]

I'm sorry to hear you are feeling sad. I have never been alone on Christmas evening (have felt alone, though), but there is another day when everyone is expected to go to parties, and that is New Years Eve. I have spent that alone many times, not being invited to any of the famous parties. Not fun to be left out when you are in your late teens :-/ I'm not saying this for the sake of competition, more to think about how some days have certain expectations about what one should do. Your point about not being able to phone someone is a very good one. I am recieving lots of texts today, though.

Do you have anytning like Aslam Ashan's Jul for enslige http://www.dagbladet.no/nyheter/2004/12/23/418452.html in Sweden?

I hope you manage to do some things you enjoy today, and that your illness won't last for long. I'm at solbirger's parents house in the South of Norway, but I have brought the laptop and I take lots of check lj and email-breaks.

[therru]

Yes, New Year's Eve (and in Sweden, Midsummer's Eve) are examples of when you are supposed to party with all your tons of friends that you have so many of. I know exactly what you mean about not being invited to any of the cool parties... but at least it's slightly easier to find people and organise something at those times if you really really try.

I'm sure there are things like that, and people have asked me before why I don't go to one of those arrangements. But I don't feel like sitting down and socialising with a lot of complete strangers -- I don't tend to enjoy that normally, so why should I enjoy it at Christmas? I suck at making small talk, anyway. I would like to spend the holidays with my friends, people I can relax and be myself with.

And yeah, I've felt really lonely even at times when I've been invited to spend Christmas with others. It's the feeling of not really belonging.

And thank you! *clings*

[snowgrouse]

Meep:( *hugs and rubs* I agree with you absolutely about the loneliness, though. I'm just going to the folks for a couple of hours today, but nothing more, and while I wouldn't mind just sitting here at my computer otherwise, it sucks that nobody else is bloody on. Meep:(. The relative quietness of the internet is already doing my head in. Of course, we could always ping each other and toast some mulled wine or something over the internet...

[therru]

Oh, another human being! *clings*

Sometimes I feel like Christmas is like a horror movie when you wake up and everything is weirdly quiet and nobody else is around because they all died in the night or were turned into zombies or Toclafane or something...

Right now I'm just being ridiculously overwhelmed by years and years of combined loneliness. *rolleyes*

[snowgrouse]

*clingity* It does suck, yeah. *snuggles anyway*

[armillary]

*highway huggery*

I've done New Year's Eve on my ownsome, and that was fairly pleasant. I suppose the difference lies in your expectations - if I'd been preparing for a big party it would have been crushing.

I recommend not stressing out, stuffing your face with nommies and asking over some others tomorrow, when all the expectations have died down and people can start acting normally again.

[nazgman]

Missed you tonight! :(
*hugs*

[bracke]

I also missed you at christmas eve. I really wanted you to join us, but since mothers husband is over 80 now and is not really healthy ....

Anyhow me and nazgman are planning to make it up to you as soon you get better!!!

JUST YOU WAIT!!!!

You are my friend and I want you to be happy!!!!!