What I find most strange about life is that for so many people and in so many circumstances, we are but a moment from what would be glory but also but a moment from the end, that it is conceivable tomorrow that we could find happiness, we could find something great, some truth or some glorious word, some beauty or some love, but also we could be ( Read more... )

so, um, yeah...apparently I had a participant in today who I had forgotten and almost missed except this exceptionally attractive girl just suddenly appeared into my office, having found me. So I'm in the upstairs running room waiting for this to finish, and how better to spend the time than with the journal entry I was thinking about this morning ( Read more... )

It has been a very good while since I have posted, but I have taken a while to accumulate what it is that I want to write about. So I'll talk this out and make it soon ( Read more... )

I haven't updated in a while, but it's hard when I'm kind of busy. Got to run off right now, might finish this later tonight ( Read more... )

1. There exists this difficult to define quantity that is endemic in all of us, we either are or we are not, we are either attractive or somewhat attractive or kinda attractive or a bit unattractive, or ugly. And this quantity, which cannot be measured in inches or pounds or anything that we know, it's something that is determined for us and ( Read more... )

My ability to write is passing away, perhaps in a way I cannot understand, and maybe that is because I've become near the end of growth and I look at me and realize, that's it. It's not going to be much else that can change, and though there are parts of me I really like and things I wish I could change, it's weird that growth is near ending ( Read more... )

I think that I've been updating this for a while but the last four or five, I guess I just close the browser and then that's it for it. Maybe that's strange. But it's how I've been feeling. There were sad things this week and I go to a school that is pretty removed but rather attached to this terrible thing. And I don't konw what to say about ( Read more... )

So the last three or so times i've tried entries, i did a couple of paragraphs then just close the browser out six or so hours later because I don't care. So that's approximately where I am at. So perhaps this has become irrelevant to me, as most things are at the current moment. The end.

I see little ones, on occasion, and I see their smiles and how each thing in the world delights them. I was enamored last night, the reason is irrelevant, but the purpose is true, and that is of my forlorn and mostly forgotten childhood. If only I had those memories and those moments back, the ones that I had only for a little time. And now ( Read more... )

Take two books, neither I have read so I may be wrong, and both ends up with a building or buildings being blown up, and one book is celebrated as one of the great cult essesnces of our time and a great movie, one that makes people happy yet does not change them a bit. And the other book, which describes a revolution that is perhaps from a ( Read more... )