i've (in)appropriately created a new journal called: touch_me_tomato

a little irony and a little dedication to my dead fish, phillis dillon.
add me.

i've decided it's time to step out the livejournal backdoor. it's not edifying for my heart or health anymore. i don't want to be sick anymore and i highly doubt anyone will miss my highly uplifting entries. even harder for me to lose my best friend is knowing he's getting along just fine without me ( Read more... )

you were the one when the day had begun
the sun was shining on us
blinding as such
so that i couldn't see, there was a hole beneath me
and you watched me fall
with no expression at alllast night i dreamt that steve jerve (THOR) asked me out on a date and i couldn't wait to see john to tell him the great news. i was really intrigued to see what a ( Read more... )

reasons today were not so great ( Read more... )

first day of class! being paid feels damn skippy. i'm not sure how i ever landed a job that pays me seven hundred dollars for almost five hours of work a day, four days a week. however it happened, i am sure as hell not complaining. i saw some familiar faces and fell in love with some new ones ( Read more... )

i have an extremely foggy recognition of how i got to lakeland and ended up half naked and in my bed. i'm also hoping that i didn't do what i think/thought i did. i'm pretty sure it was a dream.

i conquered a fear, ladies and gentlemen. i'm on my way.

i'm in datyona for a couple of weeks to start my job and get away from things. being here is not particularly thrilling, because i have to share space with parents. i will be so ready to dance around naked when i get back to lakeland. i'm also weary of getting into a job that involves entertaining. i'm not the bubbliest of personalities these ( Read more... )

the two party system is so petty and makes me want to vomit. honestly, my nephew would do a better job in his escalade/snake t-shirt, sitting at the table with me, playing scrabble. none of us are growing up, we just use bigger words in our disputes. i'm not excluded from this discussion. that thing about freudian ambivilance is the only thing ( Read more... )

oh yeah, my breasts are getting girthier! they tend to plump up a little when i gain weight, but i'm not increasing anywhere else but in the chest area. this is very good news since i about lost them in march when i lost way too much weight. i'm blaming it on the patch and praying that it's not my eyes (and hands) fooling me. thank god ( Read more... )

i often wake up from the sound of my own voice. it's a bit creepy hearing it, but not feeling the muscles in my mouth moving. this morning i woke up because i had kicked my right leg out with all my might. all the covers went down with the force and i was shivering.

i dreamt i was batman. but i was only fighting myself.