so im back at school and rehearsals are killer and making me feel like im a terrible singer when actually im quite decent, but its really ruining everything cause im no longer all excited to sing my parts cause i think it sounds all wibbly. but the director hasnt said anything. that happens to me a lot. everyone else gets feedback points and not me ( Read more... )

i wish life could be more like scrubs sometimes. where i could just bump someone on the shoulder and suddenly i would be out of my head and it would be time for someone else to narrate every little event and emotion of their life. (ive been watching lots of scrubs lately due to my utter utter summer isolation and boredom ( Read more... )

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i am inexplicably troubled. my mind has decided it hates me so its going to latch into small unimportant things and pretend that it cares wholes bunches about them. i keep having "grr that bothers me!....wtf is wrong with me no it doesnt" *brooding ensues* moments that really should be allowed to happen. and then they just cause big troubles that i ( Read more... )

"did you just ask me out on a date?"
"Why yes, though done in about the 3rd most impersonal manner imaginable, yes I did."
oh dear, what do i do now? stupid facebook status gotten me into trouble.

p.s. i decided this was a "bitch you aint neva gunna get me down" moment. and i guess i didnt really need it anyay, cause i got all A's. woohoo!

erm, well its been a moderate amount of time. short enough so nobody worries that i've dropped off the face of the earth, long enough so its a pleasant suprise to find out some news. anyway, term is over. yaya! i think everything went at least decent and i'm so far beyond caring anyway that life is fine regardless. i dunno when we are supposed to ( Read more... )

i've been having trouble sleeping. i am at war with my mind over stupid crazy carol quirks that make no sense to anyone else. unfortunately my mind usually wins and i spend most of the night getting cranky and saying "im tiiiiired" in an unecessarily winey voice over and over. even when i occasionally win, its late enough that it doesnt really ( Read more... )

so i guess i survived the really bad part of finals week. with minimal tears and angst. unfortunately i skipped two lectures, which happened to be bad ones to skip. so now these "final exams" will be a real pain. cause i dont really understand the material. i've sort of given up anyway though. bad Carol. on the bright side, i get to go visit NMH ( Read more... )

its one of those times when i wish i were with people who knew me better. i've been feeling down lately. and i dunno why, its hard to explain. the why part never seemed to matter before though. everyone just knew exactly what to do to make it all better without me even having to say anything or having a reason to say anything. everyone just ( Read more... )