a good drum beat ( Read more... )

i don't really know where i belong anymore. my bestfriend hates me. i'm about to retrace my goddamn steps and move back to MD in a month, im making a huge mistake. i hate how familiar that place is, and how nothing has changed with the people or the things to do. i'm really worried about lots of things right now. mostly the horrible degeneration of ( Read more... )

summer made me crazy for about the first month, i thought i was some sort of invincibile unisex being that didn't have to worry about anything even if a big city has its perks of crime life after the bars get out. abusing the lesbians at bars is great tho, many many free drinks, and many many pissed lesbians by the end of the night when i told them ( Read more... )

When the lion she has chosen and with whom she lives is attacked by another, the lioness quietly lies down and watches the battle. Even if her mate is worsted she does not go to his aid. She looks on indifferently as he bleeds to death under the opponent's claws, and follows she after the victor, the stronger-that is the female's nature ( Read more... )

i duno where to go next but i need out of here. i dreamnt you im awake now im so annoyed with life right now it smells like shit everywhere my teeth are falling out im so sick of feeling like this im not a part of anything anymore its a odd situation. ..

i am really bored of feeling like i'm not doing anything with my life. i know that i am but i want to do more, this whole moving away from home thing got boring. the world is too small after you live in it too long. im bored of looking at the same buildings on the way to school, the same business people holding on to the pole and brief case while ( Read more... )

i don't like being depressed ( Read more... )

i get really angry sometimes over the fact that life isn't as great as i think it is at times. when im brought back down to earth, usually on fridays around 8pm my life turns to shit temporarily. i wish i didn't care about it, and brush my shoulder off and say fuck it but i feel like it's worth caring about. why this is worth caring about i have no ( Read more... )

i feel like im growing up alot here, and i can't imagine going back to MD right now even though I really want to. im homesick but im doing a shit load of good stuff right now in school (im doing amazing in my studio classes) and working and just being an adult finally. i really want to go home for my bday but it seems impossible with the lack of ( Read more... )

i duno how to get rid of this stupid fixation i have with my appearance. i want to honestly feel good about myself. it doesn't make me sad or anything it's just a natural way of thinking that i wish i didn't have. i wish mirrors were never invented. i feel really alone and out of place here but i play it off well. i don't know what i need but i ( Read more... )