Also....My LJ turned 10 in march.

Kind of want to delete it.

I totally forgot about my live journal.
Life gets in the way of things like this.
Whatever.

I hate the fact I never get to make any decisions in my relationship. Jon just decides everything for me. Even though he agrees to things, then he changes his mind which makes me look like a huge asshole. I hate the fact that my friends do so much for me and I can never do anything nice back. I feel like a selfish little child. I can never make ( Read more... )

I hate the fact that in an instant I can go from being okay to feeling like I wish I was dead. I just want things to get better...but seemingly they never will.

since when does livejournal have ads that pop up right when you log in....wtf!

my damn car has 1 problem a week i swear. now my battery is dead....wonderful.

I'm at a party where everyone is having a good time, but I can't even feign a smile. I can't believe the one person I love most in the world would play me for a fool, and just leave me on our last day together. I start out the new year in a different way. Depressed and unwilling to let anyone push me around any more. Chances are though like all ( Read more... )

I guess I am just the master of fucking everything up. Its christmas, and jon is mad at me....my sisters are snickering behind their backs about me. I have no friends to really talk to about this either. I have never felt so surrounded, yet so alone. Even smokey is shunning me. But what can I do? If I say something it'll ruin my dads perfect xmas ( Read more... )

Well, the beach trip was interesting ( Read more... )

Happy 2nd birthday to STADIUM ARCADIUM!!!!
IT CAME OUT MAY 9TH 2006 <3

AND FUCK EVERYONE WHO SAYS THAT ALBUM IS NOT AWESOME!