Comments | thebarkside: I ams as robots, I ams goings tos gos tos thes shops ands buys somes feelings...

thebarkside

I ams as robots, I ams goings tos gos tos thes shops ands buys somes feelings...

Apr 23, 2011 10:59

I am... a bit... fine, actually. Too fine. So much awfulness in my family, and everybody (especially my nan) is so upset about everything. But I don't care. Emotionally. I genuinely can't bring myself to give a rat's ass. Which I know is awful, but I don't feel awful about it either. I guess that's what a high daily dose of SSRI is for. I've never ( Read more... )

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rhymeswithbooze April 23 2011, 13:26:36 UTC

"What a bitch." I proper lolled at that. But yeah, I know exactly what you mean. I'm actually a very emotional person and I do have genuine concern for others, but it's something I had to work at. I'm naturally a very narcissistic person. Which suits me fine, lol. I don't buy the whole "it's because I'm the eldest child" thing though. If anything, eldest children tend to be overly concerned about others and not enough about themselves because they often fall into a second- or third-parent role early in life. Youngest children are famous for being self-absorbed twats. I, of course, am an ONLY child. Which explains everything really, olololol.

Like how I turned that rant about your self-involvement into various observations about ME? Lol, pwnd.

thebarkside April 25 2011, 21:30:54 UTC

Eeeheheehe, yeah. I think I show concern for people adequately, but it's just lately - the switching-off thing. My family have always been crazy emotional, they cry at everything, and I've always been quite similar... so this is weird.

HAHAHA. Me, me, me! Ily. I wanna come to LA plz. xxx

zdarlight April 23 2011, 14:08:53 UTC

Dude, I honestly think we have the same brain.

I'm right there with you on the whole sympathy/empathy/going-through-the-motions thing and the whole being-happy-on-your-own malarkey. I've always been like that. So I guess if it makes you a selfish bitch then that makes two of us, eh? ;)

thebarkside April 25 2011, 21:32:29 UTC

Woohoo I'm not the only one, haha! I do sometimes feel guilty for not caring. I kind of told my mum about this the other day and she said, 'Never apologise for being happy!' which was great. Haha.

verenahallam April 25 2011, 10:48:30 UTC

I feel like this aaaaall the time, and I'm not taking any pillz. Except like 8 or 9 a day, but not emotion/mood altering ones.

If something bad happens to someone I 'care' about, I literally don't even KNOW what to say because I don't feel anything except 'shit, that really sucks'. So I'll say that, and er... that's about it. I can try to fabricate something, but it's a bit of an empty gesture.

It affects me for all of two seconds, when I first take in the 'thing', whatever it is. Then not anymore after that.

thebarkside April 25 2011, 21:33:25 UTC

Yeah man! It's like, I know your problems might be harsh but... shhh about it, I dnw to know really. You giant buzzkill. :D

Which is... not nice.

verenahallam April 25 2011, 21:38:49 UTC

It's just like... I'm not going to do anything about it. There's probably nothing I CAN do. If you like needed a lift to the hospital or something, yeah I might do that, but other than life threatening whatsits... shush.

It totally works both way though. I could whinge on forever and a day about my uncertain job situation, how hard it is affording things and how crap my health is but really... I don't expect anyone to give a fuck, because I wouldn't xD