I keep yelling about this stuff in snippets on Facebook but it feels pointless. It doesn't get me anywhere. But nothing's getting me anywhere anyway, I'm really just existing at the moment. I'm not living. I'm just working and stressing. For nothing. I spent the whole of January with butterflies in my stomach, and feel on the brink of tears AT ALL ( Read more... )

Suddenly very cold; gas fire keeps going out so I've got the electric one on the go. Thanks to the energy meter in front of me I can see the bill going up ( Read more... )

...if I'm doing the right thing. I went drinking on Friday at my local-pub-to-be, all unexpectedly like, and had a great time. I went to Fallout last night and sat on the sofa in the front bar for most of the night, panicking about money, and I'm sitting here now panicking about money... which is silly, because I'm well on my way to scoring a few ( Read more... )

During the 5-8-day period when sertraline was temporarily replaced by placebo, the most frequent symptoms (reported by more than a quarter of patients) were irritability, agitation, dizziness, headache, nervousness, crying, emotional lability, bad dreams and anger

or all of the above?


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Aaand I had a massive cryingfest over the stupid internet, and decided to take a break from the board. I came back over here to check my friends page... only to find another person has removed from their friends list. Brilliant. My poor ego. Trying not to take it personally. I'm going to read some stories. Yay, escapism.

I am... a bit... fine, actually. Too fine. So much awfulness in my family, and everybody (especially my nan) is so upset about everything. But I don't care. Emotionally. I genuinely can't bring myself to give a rat's ass. Which I know is awful, but I don't feel awful about it either. I guess that's what a high daily dose of SSRI is for. I've never ( Read more... )

Yeah last night got a bit stupid. I cried and did stupid things. Stupid. Maybe skipping pills and then getting drunk is not a good idea.

I need to go out and speak to some humans, I think.

Re: Things looking up.


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I lost one. It broke way too much and it had to go. Looking back through my 'teeth' tag, I reckon I've spent over £500 trying to save that bleedin' thing, over the last 3 years. I don't understand why they're all rotting so much! Cry. It didn't want to come out, and it hurt so, so much. So yeah, no more sugar, no more fizzy pop, no more... anything ( Read more... )

So much love. I am crying real loltears. Thank god for the internet, really. Hi LiveJournal. I cba still. Life's a bit awful.