I'm obsessed with reading my past entries...

Things are good and blah...living with Derek is awesome...he is the man I'll be with for life...I am going to be an auntie in a few months to two neices or nephews...got my job back...on the other hand...I have flakey friends and an ex who is an asshole...

Update ( Read more... )

Well...I do not want to use this place to complain...so here is my attempt at NOT complaining ( Read more... )

I haven't had a good night's sleep in weeks...my mind races all night...I just want to lay down, shut my eyes and sleep :-(

I will be my best for him...if he will have me.

It was good and sad ( Read more... )

I know that Sam will never forgive me...as much as he wants to...I'm going to pay for my actions for the rest of my life...guess what? I haven't forgiven myself...as much as it hurts...I wish he'd go sleep with someone...then we could both be bad...

I'M SERIOUSLY TRYING TO JUST LIVE...

I would give up a lot in order to have some change...I feel like I cannot make any good decisions...and no matter what I do...it hasn't made me happy...