...when you're dreaming with a broken heart

[that_september]

 You know what? I seriously hate my life right now.

I know that I'm a lucky girl, ok? I do. I get it. I have a roof over my head and a bed to sleep in and food to eat and money for important things like college and  people who love me and I'm not exactly dying, so life, really, is pretty goddamned good for me, right?

Then why doesn't it feel that

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[applespicy]

*big huge hugs* I'm so sorry you're feeling like this. I can't imagine how much that must hurt - I've only ever had a couple of migraines and they weren't even that bad. I hope you feel better soon.

[that_september]

Thank you. *hugs back* It really helps to hear that.

[darkenedsakura]

I know that I'm a lucky girl, ok? I do. I get it. I have a roof over my head and a bed to sleep in and food to eat and money for important things like college and people who love me and I'm not exactly dying, so life, really, is pretty goddamned good for me, right?

Then why doesn't it feel that way?

Don't ever think that, simply because you have what other people would dream of, that by the world's standards you are 'lucky' and have beaten the odds, that you can't ever feel bad for yourself. That nothing bad can happen in your life. That your 'good luck' should weigh out your pain and suffering.

I'll bitchslap anyone who keeps saying that to us, you hear?

Don't worry about being emo. You're not. You have a long ways to go before you drop to my level, trust me on this. :) I don't have school today, so I'll be sending you vibes all day, yeah? :D

[that_september]

Ah, thanks Grace. Sometimes I feel so guilty for wanting to rant...thanks for understanding. And thank you for the vibes!!

(SEE MY ICON??? I MADE IT!!!! *dances around crazily* I know it's not that amazing, but I was pretty happy lol.)

[vivid_memory]

I'm sorry you're not feeling well. I've never had migraines, I can't even imagine how horrible that must be to deal. *hugs*

I don't know how a girl with so many friends can feel so alone all the time. It's probably my own fault, really. I'm usually the one to blame, anyway.

It's not your fault. Just because you have friends and family around you who care about you, doesn't mean you aren't allowed to feel alone or upset like this. I know I don't know you IRL or all that well yet, but I sincerely doubt you did anything to bring this on yourself. Please don't beat yourself up about it, hun *hugs*

*sends good vibes your way to help you feel better soon* :)

[that_september]

Thank you so much for your hugs and well-wishes. :]

Just because you have friends and family around you who care about you, doesn't mean you aren't allowed to feel alone or upset like this.

I really appreciate that, thank you.

[jesterlady]

Sounds completely awful. I know nothing about the pain of what you're feeling but I know a little something about what it's like to have a problem people couldn't understand when you literally couldn't do something.

I really hope you feel better and that somehow it can get better. I suppose you've been to the doctor a million times and they couldn't tell you what was wrong.

You know I did hear from one friend of mine that they did a colon cleanse and stopped getting migraines. Weird huh?

*many gingerly given hugs so your head is not jarred*

[that_september]

Yeah, it feels like I go to the neurologist and every time I get no answers. All they say is, "Well...uh, you'll grow out of it?" *sigh*

Thank you so much for your understanding and hugs. It means a lot.

(And wow, a colon cleanse? o_O I'd never heard that...maybe I should talk to my doctor.)

[jesterlady]

Anything in a pinch, eh! :) Hope you're feeling better.

[triad47]

*hugs* I'm sorry you go through this. I hope you feel better. Headaches are bad enough, I can't even imagine migranes.

I think emo is the worst word anyone came up with. Venting helps. Everyone has to do it. Life's too short not to!

[that_september]

Thank you so much.

I think emo is the worst word anyone came up with. Venting helps.

Haha, you're right. Better to vent than hold it in. *hugs back*