One thing I know is that i need to get a new cat, I have had one for almost 10 years and I miss that sort of companionship. And I don't mean that i'm lonely, but i've always been a cat person. There is a baby picture of me riding on the back of my dad's Siamese. So I definitely have always had good bonds with cats ( Read more... )

I get fits of nostalgia, every few weeks. I miss the old days, I found pictures of a night of DDR at my house. Those days were so simple, everything seem so well planned and positive. The thing I find so funny is how your perspective in life can change so dramatically over the course of a few years. I can see how arrogant I used to be and self- ( Read more... )

So I recently had a therapists appointment and I learn a lot of good information. I really like this therapist, she is really what I need right now. The thing I'm realized the most between her information and my own personal realizations is, that I cycle. I don't cycle manic and depressed. I cycle hypomanic and depressed. What this means is that ( Read more... )

I saw the new Star Trek and I have to say it is a fucking awesome movie. I was apprehensive at first, but then I just allowed it to exist on it's own, without looking for all of the old cannon to pervade. This film is very funny, sentimental, and action packed. It's full of twists that Gene Roddenberry would never have dreamed and it made this ( Read more... )

Every now and then I come to great realizations about myself. I guess you would say it's an epiphany, however I don't think the lessons I learn improve my life. I've known that I've been bipolar for something like 3 years, but I don't always realize the effects it has on my day to day life. There are days when I'm very productive and hopeful. ( Read more... )

So I just realized something about Arlen Specter; He is one of the last Senators with unique dialects. He is joined by Olympia Snowe, Susan Collins, Ted Kennedy and maybe Orin Hatch. I remember like 10 years ago when you had Trent Lott, Fritz Hollings, and others. Now the Sentate and probably the House all have midwesternish sounding voices. It ( Read more... )

listening to people talk about their past relationships, recently, I have started thinking about my own. I see now, more than ever, the things I did wrong, the friendships and relationships that I have ruined. I've burned bridges and walked over people. This makes me sad. It is said that there is no turning back, and yes there are some people ( Read more... )

So I was in Louisville over the weekend and met up with my good old reliable friend Julie. We reminisced (isn't it sad that we are at an age to reminisce) and talked. The one thing we realized is that we don't post on Livejournal like we used to. I mean there were times back in the day, when I'd have three posts a day some weeks. So here is a ( Read more... )

So I just noticed I have been continuously been blogging for somewhere around 6 years. That blows my mind. I was looking at old posts and it blew my mind how petty and how quick to anger I was. These post represent a low point of my maturity, but I guess that is the course of things. What scares me is that I've lost much of my idealism and ( Read more... )

In the last few months I have been deep, deep in the dark. I've endured things that no one should have to. I've had to make serious choices that would fundamentally affect my life. I'm now back from the fog, but I find myself at the beginning starting over in everything. This is very frustrating as I know not where to go or what to do. I find ( Read more... )