at this point in my life my head is spinning. i know what i have to do, but it's gonna be ssssoooooooooo hard. im tired of being a grown up. The End

I've got to say that depression has got it's terrible black claws in me. I feel like im stuck in a dark hole and i cant get out. its horrible. the doc has me on meds but im not sure they are working. i'm so tired of this feeling. the only time i feel slightly normal is at work...and i work with dead people so how normal is that really??

Its been such a long time since i've posted on here. My life has changed quite a bit. i'm finally going toschool for something i want to so. it may sound strange to some people but i'm going to be an emblamer/funeral director. i work at a funeral home and i'm learning, but i'm also going to martin methodist to get my basics then i'll transfer to ( Read more... )

So I know that I haven't posted in my livejournal for almost a year, but i'm really liking the whole myspace thing. I was just sitting here talking to my friend Tara and I asked her if there was anything else on the internet besides myspace ( Read more... )

So I've opened a myspace acct, if anyone wants to check it out ( Read more... )

I finaly have a home computer! and first of all i want to say hello to dreamwarden. since I've left california he has often said hello and i appreciate that. and I also hope that things get better for me. I've found that I am happier being single. My friends and I have discussed this numerous times at work on our smoke breaks and I've found it to ( Read more... )

........ So I caught Jason (through his cell phone voice mail---and e-mail) cheating. Didn't I know that he couldn't be faithful? Of course I did. What's wrong with me? Who knows ( Read more... )

So I'm at the library updating my journal that I haven't updated since June. I try to update sometimes at the library , but have the time I'm not able to because of the library's "web-blocker" crap and the other half of the time the servers at livejournal are messed up ( Read more... )

Ironic ( Read more... )

Okay, so I've been talking to this guy named Dan that a girl from my work set me up with. I've never met him but over the phone he seems very nice. I don't know. I'm supposed to go to lunch with him tomorrow and I'm nervous. What if I'm not attracted to him? I soooo want to be because I really like him so far. Am I that shallow? I hope not. I guess ( Read more... )