I've been reading your blog the past couple weeks from a link from another blog. I loved this entry. You wrote it so beautifully. I'm a Catholic too, though I guess that's not really all that important, but I wanted to say that I found your story so fascinating, how you went from not believing to believing, the whole pregnancy at 17 thing and then not pregnant, and so on. Talk about a roller coaster of emotions.
I'm so thankful you know God now, though, as you struggle through your latest trials. I will say a prayer for you tonight. Keep drawing strength from friends and family. Let them take care of you for awhile. You seem like a very strong woman, and I can tell that from your posts. You *will* get through this and you *will* gain something from it that you do not yet see. I know this. Take care and thank you for sharing. christine
I am so sorry
anonymous
March 19 2006, 05:50:50 UTC
Liana - I am so sorry for your loss. I lost a baby at 18 weeks due to a chromosomal abnormality. Although I had 5 other miscarriages, this particular loss will haunt me forever. There's something about being so close and then having it taken away from you. I felt guilty for having let my guard down, as if that somehow explained the loss. (I still have not had a live birth). It's not fair
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If you were some crackhead mother willfully endangering her child, there would be fault. Issues that are not within your control are not your fault. All the women who have uteruses with fibroids and still carry to full term, are they somehow more worthy,deserving and not at fault as you
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Thinking of you
anonymous
March 19 2006, 15:26:54 UTC
I'm a lurker and I just want to tell you that I'm thinking of you. I'm sure you've heard a million "I'm so sorries" and "It'll get better with times"... I won't say anything like that... Just that I'm hoping and praying (a lapsed Catholic here) ;) that someday your pain will lighten and you will begin to breathe again. I have had 2 miscarriages though both were at 5 weeks. I know somewhat of your pain but not to the extent you are feeling. There are groups and websites out there for you to reach out to. Please try.
I want to emphasize this comment: Issues that are not within your control are not your fault.
There are some other thoughts swirling around in my head about "letting go and letting God" and how challenging and scary that can be. But I want to tread lightly here, so I will just leave it at that. Well, I guess I'll reference one more thing. You know the "Footsteps" poem? Sometimes it strikes me as being a bit sappy, and my approach to spirituality is not sappy. But I think the idea of the poem is a good one -- that God carries us when we cannot make it on our own.
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I'm so thankful you know God now, though, as you struggle through your latest trials. I will say a prayer for you tonight. Keep drawing strength from friends and family. Let them take care of you for awhile. You seem like a very strong woman, and I can tell that from your posts. You *will* get through this and you *will* gain something from it that you do not yet see. I know this. Take care and thank you for sharing. christine
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There are some other thoughts swirling around in my head about "letting go and letting God" and how challenging and scary that can be. But I want to tread lightly here, so I will just leave it at that. Well, I guess I'll reference one more thing. You know the "Footsteps" poem? Sometimes it strikes me as being a bit sappy, and my approach to spirituality is not sappy. But I think the idea of the poem is a good one -- that God carries us when we cannot make it on our own.
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