we buried adam last tuesday. everything seemed so surreal; it still does. it's not right; he should still be alive. why him??!? so young. so gentle and caring. he just needed someone to talk to - that he knew. he just wanted a soda and to go to the hospital. isn't that what he said(?).. wow two huge life changing experiences in a month. i hope my ( Read more... )

i took my life for granted for so long ( Read more... )

i hate it when you walk away ( Read more... )

the last week has been very tiring but in the end, rewarding..
emotionally, physically, and financially! it also felt so good to spend time with you relaxing and going swimming.!!
i love you! you are truly the best :-) and youre all mine ;-)

im so happy that we love eachother. im happy that we can get through almost anything, because nothing matters more than our commitment. i absolutely love our new house, and the promise of a good future.

im sorry, but this is not true! sometimes i get so overwhelmed by everything. i need to look at what a good family i have that really does care about me, and my wonderful boyfriend. and besides, how can i be sad when im going to amsterdam in march!! and possibly paris for a day or two!! life is good. :)

its so weird how fast time goes by. it seems like it was just yesterday when i turned 18 and moved out of my house. i cant believe that im going to be 21, finally! its about damn time :) but at the same time, its kindof sad. i mean, i know im still young, and have the rest of my life to live it up, but i still feel like time has gone by too fast. ( Read more... )

i am in love, and that is all that matters.

i really love you. i really do. and i dont care what it takes; im going to keep you. this is going to work (as long as we make it). im sorry i did what i did. i will make it up to you baby.

my motivation this week has increased to do the things that make me happy, and so far has been proven a success. i have not felt anxious, atleast as much as i usually do when im alone, and ive actually recreated my passions for everything in my life. today i actually got out of bed and picked up a paintbrush. and it felt incredible. i know it ( Read more... )