500th lj entry.

i've had this thing for more than 10 years.

and i'm still so sad.

I've had this livejournal since 2003. That's crazy. I miss it in a bizarre way. I feel weird writing about my ~feelings~ on tumblr. I'm almost done with college. 5 more weeks. I remember when that was 104 weeks away and those two years felt like a life time. I thought it would never end, and that I would never be happy here. But I am happy now. I ( Read more... )

This is the last safe place. I miss my best friends.

summary of 2010: i grew up too fast. i also live vicariously through friends.
2011: stop that behavoir and live for myself.

don't you be wasting all your money on syrup and honey
because i am sweet enough.

i love when everything feels good
good grades, good friends, good crush :D

i don't mind the way things are going.

sadness. sadness. sadness.

i'm so sick of everyone being right and me being unhappy but at the same time everyone not caring enough to listen. w h a t e v e r.

i'm pathetic. and i still don't know how to spell your last name. but mostly i'm pathetic.

wisdom teeth removed. mouth pain. i want to nap more peas.

ASDFGHJKJHGFDS frustration with my self.

I've come here a few times to update about my life but everytime I've tried, I end up too angry for words. Maybe this says something about the way I live my life. Hello private, honest livejournal. I'm about to furiously update you. Good bye.

happiness is having friends to split something with at denny's at four in the morning
i'm pretty sure that's what i needed to make this feel more like home

i think about all of you daily
and i still feel kind of empty without you here
but the hole doesn't hurt everyday

it's all starting to feel better
and
i
love
that.

I have so many conflicting thoughts all the time. Also I'm twenty fucking years old, why am I still worried of making sure everyone around me is happy? I'm missing out on so much because I constantly cater to everyone's needs, even if that means giving up something I want to do. And like whatever, but I feel like my family is paying so much for me ( Read more... )