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I have so many conflicting thoughts all the time. Also I'm twenty fucking years old, why am I still worried of making sure everyone around me is happy? I'm missing out on so much because I constantly cater to everyone's needs, even if that means giving up something I want to do. And like whatever, but I feel like my family is paying so much for me to be out at college and I'm not even getting a full experience. Now that I have friends and parties and stuff to go to, I'm still going home because now I have pressure to do so. This won't matter in ten years, but it's frustrating now. Eff being spineless. I should probably start doing what I want to do.