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tearsandtildes

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Jun 29, 2010 00:16

I don't know what would be worse: if the nightmares never went away... or if they did, and I never saw her again: even in dreams.

listening to emo music while dean's out, have i mentioned my dead girlfriend jess, things that prompt bed wetting episodes, [comm] dramadramaduck, so much angst in one little sentence, my issues - they are legion, crying on my keyboard, my angst is the angstiest angst, avoiding mentioning my job, [ic] journal post (text)

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autophoenix June 29 2010, 04:18:22 UTC

... Sam? You okay?

tearsandtildes June 29 2010, 04:19:21 UTC

Not really.

autophoenix June 29 2010, 04:21:44 UTC

Right. Stupid question. I kind of guessed the "not okay" thing from the soundtrack.

What happened?

tearsandtildes June 29 2010, 04:26:05 UTC

My girlfriend, Jessica... she...

[He can't even type the words, it's ~too hard~. He'll just stare at the screen for a long time and finally just push enter as is.]

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intuitivelyapt June 29 2010, 04:38:04 UTC

Yawn.

tearsandtildes June 29 2010, 04:47:34 UTC

Shut up.

intuitivelyapt June 29 2010, 04:57:15 UTC

I'd take the nightmares. Just between you and me.

tearsandtildes June 30 2010, 01:47:07 UTC

I can't imagine losing her completely.

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mulletrockking June 29 2010, 17:14:21 UTC

Sam?

tearsandtildes June 30 2010, 01:47:56 UTC

Don't worry about it, Dean.

mulletrockking June 30 2010, 02:09:46 UTC

tearsandtildes June 30 2010, 02:32:18 UTC

What? What do you want me to say?

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ttlynotcable June 29 2010, 18:08:23 UTC

... hard decision to make, man. But you're not alone in that one.

tearsandtildes June 30 2010, 01:53:17 UTC

What happened to you?

ttlynotcable June 30 2010, 04:53:34 UTC

A whole hell of a lot, more than any sixteen-year old should have to, that's for sure.

I've seen people die because of me, for me, and I couldn't do anything to save them.

tearsandtildes June 30 2010, 05:13:12 UTC

... That's how this feels, actually.

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askedtobe June 30 2010, 02:36:10 UTC

Do you have any other way to remember her?

tearsandtildes June 30 2010, 05:22:55 UTC

Most of our things were lost in the fire.

askedtobe June 30 2010, 17:33:28 UTC

... Do you have any other memories? That aren't nightmares?

tearsandtildes June 30 2010, 19:20:21 UTC

Of course I do.

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