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autophoenix June 29 2010, 04:18:22 UTC
... Sam? You okay?

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tearsandtildes June 29 2010, 04:19:21 UTC
Not really.

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autophoenix June 29 2010, 04:21:44 UTC
Right. Stupid question. I kind of guessed the "not okay" thing from the soundtrack.

What happened?

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tearsandtildes June 29 2010, 04:26:05 UTC
My girlfriend, Jessica... she...

[He can't even type the words, it's ~too hard~. He'll just stare at the screen for a long time and finally just push enter as is.]

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autophoenix June 29 2010, 04:28:17 UTC
Oh.

[ Yeah, that's okay, Sam, you don't have to finish, Claire's ~been there.~ She also feels like a dick for making fun of him for Death Cab now. ]

I'm sorry. It's never easy to lose someone, especially someone that close.

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tearsandtildes June 29 2010, 04:45:59 UTC
[She's probably trying to be comforting, but her words are just so generic, and what else does he expect from strangers on the internet anyways, but god NO ONE CAN FEEL THIS PAINNNN.]

Thanks. It just... it is feels like my fault.

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autophoenix June 29 2010, 04:49:40 UTC
I've felt like it's my fault, too. And I'd like to tell you that it's not your fault, but me saying it won't do any good because if you're ever really going to stop blaming yourself, you're going to figure it out on your own. [ yeah, she's making that assumption bc sam seems like a pretty cool guy and not a girlfriend-murderer.

oh how wrong she will be in three seasons' time. ]

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tearsandtildes June 29 2010, 04:53:48 UTC
[That was a lot of words. He stares at them for awhile between his tears.]

What happened to you?

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locked; autophoenix June 29 2010, 04:55:50 UTC
[ this is very, very delayed because she types it and then can't decide whether or not to actually hit post comment. ]

My best friend was killed because someone thought she was me.

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locked; tearsandtildes June 30 2010, 01:45:07 UTC


I'm sorry.

Someone wanted to kill you...? That's terrible.

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locked; autophoenix June 30 2010, 03:00:44 UTC
It was a while ago. But, my point is, I had to learn to stop beating myself up over it, because it's not my fault. It's his fault, he's the one who chose to kill her. I just ... I hope you can figure that out, too. That's all.

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locked; tearsandtildes June 30 2010, 05:40:31 UTC
[Even if it's just the demon's fault, that just means... Sam is more determined to kill him now. Mm.]

I guess time will tell.

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locked; autophoenix June 30 2010, 05:46:12 UTC
I guess so.

Do you want to -- What was she like? Talking about her might help you ... deal.

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locked; tearsandtildes June 30 2010, 06:13:42 UTC
She was... always so full of life that it's hard to imagine her...

She was beautiful. And smart. And positive.

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locked; autophoenix June 30 2010, 06:19:31 UTC
She sounds nice. Did you guys go to school together?

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locked; tearsandtildes June 30 2010, 06:30:15 UTC
College, yeah. A buddy of mine introduced us and it just... it was always her, right from the get go. I just knew it.

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