Last time I wrote I was pretty crushed about Justin. Everyone will be happy to know that I am feeling a little better. I still feel like I am innerfering everytime I try to be a part of the madness that *was* his life. Shelby and them make me feel left out and all that, so basically, I have decided that I should grieve my own way. Fuck everyone ( Read more... )

So Justin killed himself. Please tell me that its okay to be sad. Its Christmas...and Im drunk and sad. I tried to call everyone and finally Jesse answered and talked to me. Thank god for her. I am fucking torn apart. I dont understand why I am sad, I havent even talked to him in 2 years and I dont feel like I have the right to be sad. I ( Read more... )

So heres how life is going: I am pretty sure that I am predestined to live in a trailer park with no money and work an endless stupid job with no advancements, which is never what I wanted. I think that I suck at life. Really....everything just sucks all the time. Like I got my grades yesterday, and everything woulda been fine if it weren't for ( Read more... )

I figured that I should probably write in this thing, since all of my friends write way more than I do. Apparently on Saturday I partied with one leg up with the captain, according to Aeriel, which made me laugh more than anything. I told you all that I would put some pictures in here with my new hari, so they will be at the end of the entry, ( Read more... )

School sucks, like always. I swear to god I was supposed to end up living in a piece of shit house pregnant or something because I hate school so much. I wanna like quit most of the time, its just a bg pain in the ass. Anyway, Erin's been coming around a lot lately and I am happy about it. Its nice to have friends again, like before...I'm not ( Read more... )

Crystal and I got into a fight because shes got issues and plans to move to Florida with some guy that shes only been dating like 2 months and when I said something she freakin freaked. She left the dorm without even saying goodbye. What a crap load of crap, lol. Whatever. Anyway, I quit smoking. I havent had a cigg in 2 days. YaY for me. I ( Read more... )

I dropped my stupid chem class and it was ahuge hassel because it put me under 12 cedits. I hated it anyway, AND I got like a 14% on my first exam and I studied and got help, so it was pretty much a lost cause. Whatever. Anyway, I am supposed to go to England for Christmas to see Mike and I can't wait to see him! I still have to get a passport ( Read more... )

I slept forever. I didnt go to class on pupose just so I could pass out. I feel like curling up and crying I am so tired and my body is achy. Classes suck my balls (if I had any) and I am not feeling so hot ever anymore. I had a fun drunken night on friday, although it turned into a complete disaster...Bye.

I have lame classes. I might as well bend over now so that Chemistry 141 can fuck me in the ass sideways. I miss home only a little and I am always tired again. Anemic? I think so.............

I am back home. And I am, for the most part, a very happy girl. My new roomates arent bad, but I still can't wait for Aer to get here because I feel outta place without her and Robyn. I miss them both. There is a fly in the room and its driving me nutso. I went to Meijer and went shopping at Meijer madness, and its a waste of time. Granted, I ( Read more... )