I dont like the way I feel right now...I feel like a little kid who did something wrong knows they did and feels guilty about it. But I didnt do anything. nothing. Not one thing. my stomach is in knots Im nervous whyyyyyyyy?!?!? I kinda feel bad about drinking last night but I didnt drink that much. There really isnt a reason for me to. I hate ( Read more... )

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love makes you do silly things.
Im very happy
he is perfect
we are perfect
our house is almost perfect... its getting there :)

this was a perfect day 
only old people and my muffin drink seltzer water
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I just want someone to take care of me I feel like Im dying. everything hurts. And no one cares

pasted from my myspace
my life is full of stories no one believes.

So I guess this goes back to last may. I came home from work one day and someone had stolen my dog. FUCK. I know who would come in a house and take a dog and nothing else. Really I have no clue. But it happened and I never got her back. Okay so awhile passes. Come to about January of ( Read more... )

okay so I just read something I wrote on july 10th of this past year so fucking fitting. amazing how nothing changes so fitting that Im posting it here. well its not so much directed at the same people but the same ideas. Ive bolded the most fitting parts just incase you're a skimmer like me.

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I want to fix it. I dont want to choose sides I dont want to be forced to choose sides. Im just as much at fault I feel so bad. I dont ever want to see anyone cry ever again. It rips me apart. tension tension tension. Anger is a scary thing. a really scary thing. what is going to happen? There is so much going on and its all out of my hands. i feel

I woke up so fucking angry this morning. Im so mad about the stuff stolen and I woke up remembering 2 other things that were missing. Just when I think im gonna be okay no it gets fucked up. Im so mad at myself. I did it I left it there its no ones fault but my own. fuck fuck fuck. I need a kick me sign for my back.
just kick me while Im already

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