two posts in one day what the fuck
okay so I just read something I wrote on july 10th of this past year so fucking fitting. amazing how nothing changes so fitting that Im posting it here. well its not so much directed at the same people but the same ideas. Ive bolded the most fitting parts just incase you're a skimmer like me.
So I dont write much because I like to keep it to myself (or I just talk to jessie) but it gets to a point where I want to explode sometimes. Things like what are going on right now are the reason why I dissappear for weeks, not go out and show my face. Its not because im just all content being old grey and gay its because I cant stand the drama it makes me sick. Its none of my business so keep me out of it. Please just remember that. Dont pull me into your high school drama.
Next I have been a better friend to you then anyone else I have never ditched you looked, down on you and I have ALWAYS been there for you. You are so self absorbed if it doesnt have to do with you you dont care. ME ME ME You know what if we never speak again it wont be my fault it will be yours. Im sorry you dont think I was there for you when you needed me most but I couldnt change that. I wasnt in charge of that. I am far from perfect but I try to be a good friend. Be up front if you have a problem with me dont talk shit to everyone else but me about it. Do just be pissy to me for weeks and say everything is fine then go off on me randomly.
Thank you for making me into a hermit again. I was just coming out of my shell again and you pushed me back in even farther.
Thank you Jessie for loving me for who I am. Despite all of my foibles. Im so happy with us. You have given me the best year (well 2 now) of my life and we have so many more to come. I love you with all of my heart like I have never loved before.
I want a friend I can go to and say what ever Im feeling and them take it in and listen and not look down on me. Not make me feel bad for how im feeling. Just shed a little light on it maybe. Eh only in a perfect world that would happen.
So I dont write much because I like to keep it to myself (or I just talk to jessie) but it gets to a point where I want to explode sometimes. Things like what are going on right now are the reason why I dissappear for weeks, not go out and show my face. Its not because im just all content being old grey and gay its because I cant stand the drama it makes me sick. Its none of my business so keep me out of it. Please just remember that. Dont pull me into your high school drama.
Next I have been a better friend to you then anyone else I have never ditched you looked, down on you and I have ALWAYS been there for you. You are so self absorbed if it doesnt have to do with you you dont care. ME ME ME You know what if we never speak again it wont be my fault it will be yours. Im sorry you dont think I was there for you when you needed me most but I couldnt change that. I wasnt in charge of that. I am far from perfect but I try to be a good friend. Be up front if you have a problem with me dont talk shit to everyone else but me about it. Do just be pissy to me for weeks and say everything is fine then go off on me randomly.
Thank you for making me into a hermit again. I was just coming out of my shell again and you pushed me back in even farther.
Thank you Jessie for loving me for who I am. Despite all of my foibles. Im so happy with us. You have given me the best year (well 2 now) of my life and we have so many more to come. I love you with all of my heart like I have never loved before.
I want a friend I can go to and say what ever Im feeling and them take it in and listen and not look down on me. Not make me feel bad for how im feeling. Just shed a little light on it maybe. Eh only in a perfect world that would happen.