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Five Minutes of Thought
It's tough these days to get myself to focus for five whole minutes on just one task. As of right now I've got three tabs open aside from this one and the urge to plow through them would just end up with me having double that amount when the dust settles ( Read more... ) -
Here I Am Again
It's so funny that I'm back here again.
I rushed to login here after smoking a bowl (I don't think I've ever referenced drugs on this journal, now I feel dirty)
I feel like I have so many thoughts to tell, so many updates to the narrative. Let's give it a good shot and see if I can accomplish a lot with few words.
Being back in Portland feels like ( Read more... ) -
It's a long way to walk alone
Starting over again. This entire year has a regression, every single good piece receding, like a falling tide.
Here in the city in the dark, knowing full well that I could get in my car and drive to anywhere, disappear completely for months, and only the bill collectors would notice.
I guess that's what the definition of what freedom is.
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Mounting Exigency
The rubber has been hitting the road at work- my "rookie" status is in full swing as I've overextended myself in several areas and get smacked around a bit for my foolishness. To reassure the higher ups I've fallen back to my stronger ideas and abandoned some experimental stuff. I think I'll need a success soon in some area to cement my position ( Read more... ) -
Deep Breath
Ironically, the only private place I'll probably be able to truly speak my mind and talk about private and personal matters from here on would be here. My accounts on twitter and facebook are now officially part of my new job, and will be monitored as such. I don't even really think my FA is safe, really, from prying eyes ( Read more... ) -
Waking Up, putting some water on my face, and staring at myself in the mirror
If there is something I've said before that I know is a lie now, it's that I'm a simple person.
No no no, I am definitely not that. I have a problem: I think too much.
For example, let's just take the very methods of communication, like talking. For me, there exists at the very least three levels of information ( Read more... ) -
Knowing the path, and walking the path.
I can't seem to help it. I'm down here, away from everything under the express orders to come back with a definitive road map for happiness. But that's a hard term to define, especially from this limited perspective- it's like asking someone what kind of condiments they want on their hot dog after a month of hunger. I just want to get home ( Read more... ) -
Clarity
I've kind of remained quiet on this whole thing in terms of leaving an online record because I didn't want to admit there was anything wrong at all with what had happened- the fact of the matter is, ignoring it all just made it worse ( Read more... ) -
Third time's the charm
Happiness is just a word to me ( Read more... )
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