No matter how tightly I've pulled the curtains together, an overly cheery piece of sunlight sneaks its way in. It seems to tell me how bleak and boring I've become. How I now lack any allure, and fail to be outlandish enough even to impact the most bland breed of characters ( Read more... )

I think this is one of those feel awesome days. I worked 6 hours today yeah, but i made some monies. I stumbled on this AMAZING album a couple hours ago and havn't stopped playing it. It was sunny today. I got all those gloomy bills sent out. And my cars been acting as normal as it will ever get the past couple days. I really really wanna buy some ( Read more... )

Im still that kid thats outgoing and outlandish ( Read more... )

it's really odd how good its felt over the past days of having no social interaction with anyone besides telling cory not to bother me *in a polite way* I am still on the pack of cigarettes that I bough on friday with 4 to spare. Ive completely cleaned my room and car. Ive filled about 3, 8x10 pages of paper to the brim with drawings and ideas. ( Read more... )

I lack any creativity or motivation. I lack a personality or any "other half." I want to just sink into the dirt still alive but forgetting my life up to this point. This vicious cycle can eat its own self. When I wake up tomorrow there will be the same nothingness I find myself rushing off into. Im tired of self->dependence->strength->sanity->

My motivation seems to have escaped through these gentle fingertips once again ( Read more... )

Im only really surprised that I fell asleep upside down drawing on my bed. Not that I have no job, that rent and heating are due REAL soon, or that panera sent my check in the mail as a nice howdy doo, so now its going to traverse city. luckily my parents come down the 2nd. Fuck this real life shit. What happened to only making memories. Oh yeah, ( Read more... )

again? yep :/

Ive been thinking more and more of venturing myself back to Traverse City at the end of August. I hate working minimum wage, dead-end jobs. I want my career in graphic design or some sort of artistic outlet. Moving back to Traverse I would enlist in a 2 year certification program for graphic design, then transfer to a much more interesting school. ( Read more... )

OH YEAH!!!! I planted 200 trees today!
I feel better now..it was all pine fresh?
SERIOUSLY~!