What the hell was I was thinking? I'm looking over these entries I wrote in this stupid journal and I can't believe how insane I used to be with Kaitlin. When we used to make love, it was incredible. When I looked into her eyes, I knew she loved me. So I'm not sure why I was so obsessed about her past. Or her going to bars once a week. Fuck, its ( Read more... )

oh my fucking god this bullshit has to stop...i'm breaking up with that lying, conniving bullshit artist that i've called my girlfriend.

Emmierox1421: i love john mayer ( Read more... )

i'm happy for the first time in a long time.

saw a shitty ass movie and due to some recent skeletons in my closet, i lost the becca's respect (haha and im just mourning the loss of respect from our local dime whore). ugh, i have the worst headache in the whole world and i want to go to sleep but, alas, there's so much shit to be done beforehand.

i just woke up, my stomach is in knots. i don't know why but i had 3 or 4 dreams about ilse. i just woke up with this sickening feeling of jealousy and loss. i want to call her. everyone says i should but i can't. its been too long. i really think i was in love...how many times does a person find love? once? twice at most. i don't think i'll ever ( Read more... )

the songs we fell asleep to ( Read more... )

so sick of walking on eggshells...i'm not your bitch and im tired of getting treated like it. you want someone to take it out on, find someone else. sorry.

i don't know what to say anymore. i would like to get out here. if i had wings, i'd fly out of this town-this universe sucks. i want to just live in a place where we can sleep at night without the overlooking prescence of a neglectful god. and, i've seen a lot of what there is out there and its so underwhelming.

this is so weird...i dont know why im feeling this right now. i miss ilse so much. i would do anything to kiss her again. just one last time. i can rememeber it so vividly. there has not been one girl who has followed her that has made any sort of impact in my life...i've tried putting this to rest so many times and it won't go. and i keep ( Read more... )