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I helped out my jiu jitsu instructor with a private lesson by rolling with a guy who is 6'2 265ish. I'm 5'7 135 at the moment. I did well and got the better of him the first two times we went at it. I didn't really want to go a third time, but I've got to have "heart" to be a fighter, so the last time we went, dude dropped all of his weight on my ( Read more... )

worked 7am to 6:45pm today at hollister

then had dinner with a friend

we talked about how he tried to kill himself last friday

all is fine with him, relatively

long day

So I'm leaving Hollister. Fuck them ( Read more... )

So I'm doing much better ( Read more... )

I feel so weird. I feel weird saying that I don't lover her anymore. I'm trying not to think about her. So many things remind me of her because we had so much in common. We liked so many of the same things and discussed so much. I could easily relate or refer anything to a conversation we had. I could tell you where I was and when too ( Read more... )

wanted to write a song

drinking instead

I worked today from 7am-5pm. On my feet the whole time, malnourished and all. I came home. Got back around 6 and crashed. Meant to get up at 7, but slept until 9. Then I talked with my mom for a bit. I had mentioned in passing that my friend who cuts my hair is doing free hair cuts with a color. I had thought about dying my hair just for the hell ( Read more... )

So as I move on along the moving on process, I've come to another precipice if you will. There is still the nagging, longing feeling when I think about her. But I guess not seeing her anymore has made it a bit easier to slowly forget, or at least it has made it easier to not think about her as much ( Read more... )

I'm doing better today ( Read more... )