My life is consumed by tumblr. Much better ( Read more... )

Things have been okay. Weird, but okay. It's occurred to me that I smoke too much, but I'm pretty much out to my parents. One day myself and a friend smoked a blunt of dro and got so stoned that we left the roach in the ashtray! Hahaha My parents found it, and after that, it was pretty clear. Basically all they talked to me about was the ( Read more... )

everything that used to be affiliated with the word "is" is now replaced with "was". Damn near all things I've had are things of the past. All I can do is allow myself to go a little crazy, crazy with motivation, and gtfo. Keep on keeping on.

Eventually I will be wanted and useful, to someone.
And happy, for the sake of being happy for myself.

I just want to fucking shoot myself in the face. I feel awful and I DON'T want to be getting sick.

So Sunday I went to a BMX contest and drank waaay too much beer in THE MORNING before I even ate anything. It was a lot of fun though. I'm pretty stoked for Halloween. BMX people know how to get down. Apparently Jordan is going to that party as a nun who got an abortion, carrying around a fake bloody fetus, and I'm going to be the abortion doctor. ( Read more... )

changes are a'comin'. Trust.

My mom went to the store and when she came back, she handed me sleep aids and a pack of cigarettes. And said "Don't say I don't love you." Thanks mom. The simple, simple pleasures that get me through. Had she handed me $5 and a cigarillo, that would've been even better, but I'm not really complaining. I was going to need cigarettes in about 2 hours ( Read more... )

I spend just about all of my time with Ben Griggs now, and I feel quite fortunate for that. He's one of the only people I really like here. He and I have been really productive. The other day, I typed up my resume as well as his, after we copped a free sack. Pretty proficient if you ask me. We've also driven all over to find jobs, found sites, ( Read more... )

I'm leaving this afternoon for Gainesville, bringing BEN GRIGGS, seeing Zakk and Ariana and probably various other people who call me. I'm bringing my camera to document this glorious mini-vacation. Rather stoked. Sucks that Mike Waylen is on a hiatus, but I know I'll see him s00nish. Mitch made it safely to Vegas, which I'm also glad about, obvi ( Read more... )

Things are coming further together. I woke up yesterday morning feeling cleansed of toxins. I know what I need to do and what needs to be done. I found a school in Phoenix and filled out my address and what not so I can be mailed information. I'm going to make it happen and talked with my parents about it. I basically presented it in a "heads up" ( Read more... )