Otra vez...

[symphony0f_lies]

Estoy muy triste. No pienso que voy a estar mejor, tampoco. Pienso que tengo un mente roto. Quiero creer que hablando y trabajando contra mi tristeza va a cambiarme, pero.. es obvio que naci en esta manera: roto. Es un pensamiento muy triste, pero no parece que hay una respuesta para mi. Deseo que naci normal, de mente en buen salud. No se... No se

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[homicidalfreak]

Si necesita alguien para hablar con o ayuda con algo, tu sabe donde su amigo está pequeñito. No tengas miedo a preguntar. :)

[sumthng_nside]

google is a great tool.
that being said....

yeah, problems are definitely really bad when you can't escape them. what you need to find is a way to get around them, instead of trying to jump over them in one jump. or atleast distract yourself from them for a bit so you can re-center and go back to the problem with a clearer mind so you can actually do something about it.

idk

[symphony0f_lies]

the problem with the problem, is that it isnt 'boy problems' or 'friend problems' or anything at all of the sorts that im used to. its life problems, i am finally cracking. ive been deteriorating mentally for about 4 months now, i am afraid to sleep because i see things, i hear things, im horified im going to die at night -- for no reason that seems too logical. im having typical issues of existentialism and i spend a lot of time pondering my life and then i get physically sick from it. i cry for no reason, for hours. i cant control myself. i feel all at once like quitting my every desire -- i will work so hard, take so many classes and then just one moment will come that will say 'what the fuck is the point...' and that moment lasts like 2 weeks where im ill with depression and confusion and a lack of mobility in general

pft. no burden at all. helping and listening is what i do.

[sumthng_nside]

Yeah, life can definitely act exactly like the ocean, slowly wearing away at your sanity. sometimes i wonder how i manage. But somehow i do, and that is all that matters to me really

[cessibobessi]

do you believe in God? i've always wondered that about you, and i guess this entry kind of hints at that..

but i do, and even though we BARELY know each other, i worry about you girl. i'll be praying for you and that you get some answers to your questions, or clear vision so you can see why things are the way they are, and how to get past this.

[symphony0f_lies]

i think that may be the hardest hurdle, because i want to pray for myself and my mom wants to pray for me but so many people tell me God isnt real, and my whole major [psychology] apparently denies room for God in it.. i do believe if my beliefs were stronger then i wouldnt worry so much about anything. because if i could remember God, id know that any superficial matter didnt matter, and i feel like hed put peace to my mind... something IS happening in there thats abnormal, as you might see in my other comment reply but still... God controls all, right?

given that you barely know me, i really really really DO appreciate your comment =] especially because you have such a great prescence to me as being Super Girl haha ^^; youre freakin cecily.

Hola/Hello!

[dariencito]

Hey nice blog!!! Your spanish is good!!!! I added you 'cause u like Anime, hope it's not a problem. :)